lame n shit

2008-11-04T20:39:00.000-08:00

UPDATED

2007-07-01T01:58:00.000-07:00

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2007-04-02T18:36:00.000-07:00

说爱走到了极限
我想Google爱情
有没有答案在网络里面

在我指尖敲打着键盘
无声的却爱的深刻
或许在爱的部落格
储存着思念
就这样
我颓废
夜无法入睡
用沉默
把自己灌醉
街灯它漂白了房间
夜色弥漫孤单气味
爱无畏
只是给不给
妳了解
装做无所谓
时空隔开爱的真伪
相拥的棉被
只剩下爱情的余味

我颓废
我沉默

夜色弥漫孤单气味

爱无畏
只是给不给
妳了解
装做无所谓
时空隔开爱的真伪
相拥的棉被
只剩下爱情的余味

爱的主旋律

2007-02-14T11:27:00.000-08:00

男：是你在那个雨季走进我生命
带着一点任性和温柔的表情
女：是你在那个雨季赶走了孤寂
温暖的笑容换我仅有的甜蜜
男：天上一万颗星星我却只看见你
你说这是幸运还是不可思议
女：身边有太多风景我却停在这里
说我傻的可以还不是因为你
男：是你的声音
女：带给我勇气
男：恋爱的频率
女：直到我心底
男：如果你愿意
女：是的我愿意
合：带着我幸福的主旋律
男：从前的实际
女：现在我相信
男：天空会放晴
女：爱会更甜蜜
男：如果你愿意
女：是我的愿意
合：爱的主旋律,永远唱下去.

专属天使 - TANK

2006-12-12T02:24:00.000-08:00

我不会怪你对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏好翅膀
人们愚蠢鲁莽
而你纤细善良
怎能让你为了我被碰伤
小小的手掌厚厚的温暖
你总能平复我不安的夜晚
不敢想的梦想透过你的眼光
我才看见它原来在前方
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
小小的手掌大大的力量
我一定也会像你一样飞翔
你想去的地方就是我的方向
有我保护笑容尽管灿烂
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望
要不是你出现
我一定还在沉睡
绝望的以为生命只有黑夜
没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

专属天使 - TANK

2006-11-29T03:02:00.000-08:00

LEO MAN

He likes to comb his hair backward, open his forehead showing a dignify
facial expression. His eyes is sparkle, but slightly showing laziness. He
walks firmly and slowly like a lion, confident and ego proud. Outside, you
may think he is kind and gentle person, but inside he is a strong and secure
person. If he is frighten, he will re-act and respond right away. His words
always seem normal but mostly imply "order and demanding". He will not talk
fast, or can not talk fast, neither walk fast. In a crowd or at work he will
act normally, but not for long you will see him standing out of the crowd
and be a center of attention with his words, or his action.

You might think he is a shy guy, but deep down inside he wants to power over
his family and his friends. He just waits for that right moment. Do not take
what is his, and do not order him, or else you will see a fierce lion. He
respects elderly and senior, but will never bow down and accept like a
looser for he will rather die than loose his dignity.

He talks bluntly even on an occasion that he should not say such thing. He
is a compassionate guy and always look at other people on a bright side. He
likes people to listen to him. Even he has such a blunt and bold
personality, he could easily reach his goal without making any enemy.

Once disagree with him on something, he can be very up set like a rainy
storm on a summer day. It will only last a short time, then he will be back
a cheery merry person again. He is a bright and witty guy, and he will not
put any efforts on something that he thinks it will not work and waste his
energy. He is a good planner and can well manage his job assigned. When he
gives order, he expect them to be carry out exactly. He is the leader type
that the followers love.

He can give other people advice and solve problems for other people well,
except his own mess. He can be easily hurt by other people especially if you
do not trust or respect his ability. You could compliment him sometimes and
make this lion be your kitty with no difficulty. He is not a good judge for
he listen to many people and tend to belief all sides.

You can hardly see a Leo man with no woman by his side. If you see him
alone, he could already have a love one in his heart, or just broken up with
one. Because he is very proud, he can change many girl friends. He will do
many things for the woman he loves, but loosing his face is not one of them.
Leo man can not live without love , because for him Love is a ray of Light.

He likes people to rely on him, it's make him feels "in power". He may
complaint if he is asked for favor, but deep inside he is happy that you
asked him. If you offer to help him , he will refuse you right away.

When he is broke , he can find money still. He is not careful with his way
of spending for he has fun with spending money and happy to buy what he
likes. He lets other people borrow money from him easily even if he has no
money, he will run to his friend to borrow money for you. He likes first
class , first quality of everything.

He can work hard like a mad dog, and sometimes can be lazy like a lazy
sleepy cat. When he works, he is very serious. When he parties, he can be a
party animal. If he ask you out, you will sure have a fun and jolly time.

He will take chance with his love life, so if you know how to handle him,
you will win. If he is your love one, it won't be a romance novel. You have
to be ready to calm him down when he over reacts to small matters because
our cool stability will control and ease his mood. If you can not handle or
understand him, your relationship will be like a demolition zone, a on and
off relationship till all your friends tired to hear about your breaking up
and making up.

Beauty is always in the eyes of the lion. You have to be dignify to walk
with the lion king. Your looks is part of his image and ego and he is very
proud about it too. If you want his attention the first time you meet, you
better be astounding attractive. If you have a first conversation with him,
you have to show him how much you adore his thinking. He likes to talk and
not knowing that he likes to talk about himself.

my horoscope!! can say 80% accurate la. BUT Y LIKE SO MANY BAD POINTS?!
LION ROAR!!!!!!!!!!

好朋友

2006-11-28T02:54:00.000-08:00

「好朋友」是男女之间那种介於情人和好朋友之间的曖昧关系？男女之间就不能做「好朋友」吗？

*我的「好朋友」你到底在那里？

2006-11-27T23:59:00.000-08:00

羅志祥－好朋友

像兩首節拍不同的歌　卻又同時被愛情合奏　旋律勉強著
愉快不能夠假裝快樂　你心中有寬闊的天空　但空氣好稀薄

＃曾經以為等待會改變什麼　你總會屬於我
　但是最後時間證明了　你只喜歡我

＊你說我比較像你的好朋友　只是不小心擁抱著
　你道歉　你難過　於是我給你笑容
　誰在乎我的心　還會不會寂寞

　如果愛情是五線譜　我曾希望用全音符
　吟唱出　愛上你　那完整的幸福
　當你的心沒有耳朵　即使我為你唱著歌
　你也只　看見我哭了

Repeat ＊，＃，＊

你說過我是你最好的朋友卻不應該再擁抱著
你退縮　你冷漠　於是我放開雙手
不在乎我的心　會永遠的寂寞

ARGH

2006-10-20T05:42:00.000-07:00

不在乎有没有以后

2006-10-14T02:21:00.000-07:00

独自在房间的角落　
点根烟让寂寞飘走
说起来失眠也不错　
至少可以不作梦
难道爱会渐渐折旧　
连回忆也变成折磨
真心的想给妳一切　
妳偏偏只想要自由
现在几点钟　
风知不知道妳睡了没有
抬头仰望着天空
一起拥有过的快乐　
像断了线的气球
不在乎有没有以后　
爱妳是活着的理由
紧紧的抱住跟妳有关的一切　
包括想着妳的心痛
我们还有没有以后　
牵着手幸福的以后
在妳的心中千万记得还有我　
永远守着我的承诺
在等候

*不在乎有没有以后 - Energy

难过.

2006-09-25T01:43:00.000-07:00

ok. i m back. ya. todae is the last day of holiday. this short holidae suck. sp suck. n ya MY LIFE SUCK! so tml i got to wake up early again n go to sch. face my classmate with a fake smile. enjoy my INTERESTING lesson and go home again. n this just continue. hai. now i m starting to recall who the hell tt told me poly is fun n entertainng when i m young. hai.

my life
i dunno how to phrase it. dunno how to describe it n i dunno how to take it anymore. argh. suck suck suck. can somebody tell me wth happen wth goes wrong. please~ please~ please~ been tellin myself it's nth big. its not impt. BUT i just cant take it anymore. I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE! hai. WHY WHY WHY!!! can i turn back my time? hai.

心雨
橡树的绿叶啊白色的竹篱笆
好想告诉我的她这里像幅画
去年的圣诞卡镜子里的胡渣
画面开始没有她我还在装傻
说好为我泡花茶学习摆刀叉
学生宿舍空荡荡的家
守着电话却等不到她

心里的雨倾盆的下也沾不湿她的发
泪晕开明信片上的牵挂那伤心原来没有时差
心里的雨倾盆而下却始终淋不到她
寒风经过院子里的枝桠也冷却了我手中的鲜花

`wo zhen de 不知道 ying gai zhen mo zuo. ying gai 怎样 mian dui. neng bu neng rang wo 倒流时间. rang wo hui dao na xie 快乐 de cong qian.

退后

2006-09-07T05:40:00.000-07:00

歌曲：退后
歌手：周杰伦专辑：依然范特西

天空灰的像哭过
离开你以后
并没有更自由
酸酸的空气
守住我们的距离
一幕醉心的结局
像呼吸般无法停息
抽屉泛黄的日记
找到了回忆
那笑容是傻气
你我的过去
被深深真的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情
存心的眼泪是多余
我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给的承诺
全被时间扑了空
我知道门都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情会一定带去

我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里带去(待续)
(相信你我还会有开始
只因我们都没有错)

yeah. this is another jay's new song! like it veri much! hha. his album 8th of sep den out BUT now we can dwl the whole album fr internet liao! kao. n ppl if u like this song. GO BUY HIS ALBUM! haha.

it's 5.40am now. BUT I STILL CANT FALL ASLEEP! this sucks! hai.. nvm. shall go memorise the lyrics. BOO!!

LAME DAO~~~~

2006-08-27T07:33:00.000-07:00

WooHOO. the time now is 6.33 AM.. haha. n i'm still awake. AND i m goin to play soccer in 2 hrs time!! ha. I M TT DUMBASS TT WEAR UNDERWEAR OUTSIDE! --- SUPERMAN!! haha. turn here turn there since 3am. SHI MIAN!! thinkin abt lots of stuff.. n tada 3 hr pass so fast! ha. ha. CANT SLEEP? SICK OF GAME? NOBODY TO CHAT WIF? den BLOG! haha. sound like some adv lines.. ha.

Changed my blog's song. it's 周杰伦 new song 千里之外!! hahaha. n guess who sing tt song wif?! 费玉清!!! haha. its NICE!! his album comin out! 8th SEP!! lol. repeating that song for abt at least 50 times liao? haha. I M MAD! yes!! shall learn the lyrics soon! haha. oh man! its 645 now! SHLD I SLEEP OR JUS TON TILL 8 plus n get out. hahaha.
angel: SLEEP! later faint when u play soccer den u know!?!
devil: NO! dun sleep!! one more hour onli. WAD FOR man! scarly later overslept how!?!
angel: FUCK U DEVIL!! YIEN DUN LISTEN TO HIM!!!! u will DIE!!!
devil: i tot u r ANGEL? Y THE HELL U R USING VULGARITIES!
angel: wads wrong wif using tt! knn@$@$%@#$
devil:RT#W#R$#RR%#ETBD
yien: i tot u all suppose to help me decide wad to do!?!
the angel n devil dao me n keep arguing till the sun rise n.... TADA! its 8!!! hahaha.

I AM HAVING FUN!!!!! hahahahahaa... i m mad!!! GOD HELP ME!!!!!!!
god: YES! how can i help u?
yien: make me sleep pls!
god: for sleepin in one min please press 1. for sleepin in 2 min pls press 2. for sleepin in 3 mins pls press 3.......
yien: FUCK U GOD!!!
god: for fuckin my ass pls press1, for fuckin my ch##*7# pls press 2, for fuckin my....
yien: KILL ME PLS!!
god: for dying in one min please press 1. for dying in 2 min pls press 2. for dyin in 3 mins pls press 3.......
HAHAHA! i m super duper fuper luper muper LAME!!!!!! 苦中做乐. HAI!!!!!!!!!!!

WOO. sun rise now! kao! dammn nice. sky turns pinkish just now.. den gt birds flyin.. hahaha. can pai mtv liao.. hahaha. too bad. i lazi to take photo of it.

梦醒来是谁在窗台把结局打开???

haha. its 7 NOW! WOOHOO. BLOGGING ROCKS! SLEEPIN PEBBLE!!!! hhaha LA!! time past so fast when u blog la.. ha. will ANYONE be tt wu liao n read finish my this entry?? ha. ha.

few days back. I FINALLY KNOW HOW THE HELL IT FEEL WHEN U FAINT!! kao. dammn scary. u will think u r conscious n den slowly when ur body dun listen to ur brain. TADA. u will blackout n DROP!! lol. I THINK i m dyin.. SO PPL PLS TOK TO ME MORE B4 I AM GONE! hahaha.
我送你离开千里之外你无声黑白~
我送你离开天涯之外你是否还在..`

where is 天涯?!? lol. somebody tell me pls! i shall go help jay see whether the "你" 还在 not.. ha.

oh my cow! 7.15 liao.. haha. ok! i shall keep on crappin!

BUT! guess wad. i run out of stuff to crap. haha. ok. erm. erm. some lame joke?!?
yien: 一千公斤的棉花重还是一千公斤的铁重????
cw: think think think
yien: 不知道right?
cw: keep quiet n didnt sae anything.
derek: haha! cw u suck! dammnfcuk!
yien: 一样重la! KAO.
cw: aiya. lame~ lamer! 我早就知道了. 不要管你而已.
all of us: OH!!!! 0.O O.0 zZZZZz
LOL! this ass. always die die also dun want 认输one. lol. METAL TEETH man!

hahaha! 730! woo. fuckin chinese words take up so much time! ha. N GUESS WAD! I M FEELIN FUCKIN SLEEPY NOW!! n its LIKE WTF!!!!!!! hahahaah. nvm. SOCCER WILL KEEP ME AWAKE! YES! YES! YES!!!

ps. I M JUST TRYIN HARD TO ENTERTAIN MYSELF. hai.

2006-08-26T23:59:00.000-07:00

周杰伦&费玉清 - 《千里之外》

屋檐如悬崖风铃如沧海我等燕归来

时间被安排演一场意外你悄然走开
故事在城外浓雾散不开看不清对白
你听不出来风声不存在是我在感慨
梦醒来是谁在窗台把结局打开
那薄如蝉翼的未来经不起谁来拆
我送你离开千里之外你无声黑白
沉默年代或许不该太遥远的相爱
我送你离开天涯之外你是否还在
琴声何来生死难猜用一生去等待

闻泪声入林寻梨花白只得一行青苔
天在山之外雨落花台我两鬓斑白
闻泪声入林寻梨花白只得一行青苔
天在山之外雨落花台我等你来

一身琉璃白透明着尘埃你无瑕的爱
你从雨中来诗化了悲哀我淋湿现在
芙蓉水面采船行影犹在你却不回来
被岁月覆盖你说的花开过去成空白

梦醒来是谁在窗台把结局打开
那薄如蝉翼的未来经不起谁来拆
我送你离开千里之外你无声黑白
沉默年代或许不该太遥远的相爱
我送你离开天涯之外你是否还在
琴声何来生死难猜用一生...

我送你离开千里之外你无声黑白
沉默年代或许不该太遥远的相爱
我送你离开天涯之外你是否还在
琴声何来生死难猜用一生去等待

熟悉的温柔

2006-08-23T01:24:00.000-07:00

我总是一个人走
心里却充满空洞
有太多藉口来弥补寂寞
却无法找回自由

爱
曾经擦身而过
喜欢在记忆里停留
习惯搜寻你的只要你的就够
原来我们一直都在那最美的时候

你熟悉的温柔从不曾离开我
在你心底看到拥有
你也一直在等着我
再多的语言也很难去表达这一份承诺
我不会放手我要勇敢地爱着你

你熟悉的温柔从没有离开我
在我眼里看到什么
全部都是你的笑容
我终于知道你一定就是我幸福的执着
这一次我不会放手

感觉不曾变过
时间不再转动
就为了你和我

你熟悉的温柔　
从不曾离开我
在你心底　
看到拥有　
你也一直在等着我
再多的语言　
也很难去表达　
这一份承诺
我不会放手　
我要勇敢的
爱着你~

熟悉的温柔 - 周渝民

屁!

2006-08-17T03:34:00.000-07:00

WOO`~~~~~~~~ i m BLOGGING.. haha. READ MR LEROY TAN latest entries.. and it gif me the urge to blog! hahaha. n yeah i luv this. " ppl often say "there are so many ppl out there who cares and love for u" but if u actually take time to count, i think the number of fingers u have on your hand is sufficient for u to count. have u ever pondered how do u really label a fren as "best friend" ? someone who goes out with u often, shares every single bit of happiness and sorrow with u, etc. but is it really tat impt to have a "Best Friend" in your life?" http://istillloveherdeeply.blogspot.com/--click here to read more
HAAH. ROY I DUNNO THE ANSWER TOO. mayb lets just label a fren as "good fren" is enuff? N UR BEST FREN IS SOCCER AND GAME?! though they cant share sorrow wif u but it can at least gif me happiness man! ha. ha. I M TOKIN RUBBISH AGAIN. BOO.

haha. had a WONDERFUL BIRTHDAY. - went to cp to meet mr d* mr tb* mr cc*, LEROY n MASAM to study in e morning. (i dunno y i put a comma b4 i wrote leroy name =) haha. DUE to exam stress everybody seems to be suffering fr lao ren chi dai zhen. lol. ok. mug mug mug. den we just went home like this. ha. ha. ha. ok. so went home to rest. woo. hahahahahaa. mani things else happen too. but. NAH. i m lazi to type it out.

ok lets stop being so emo. HERE'S some pic to share:

- haha. the title of this pic is : wad's the point of doing this? . HAHA. TM if u r readin my blog i m sure u will like this. lol

- miss TAN YOU MIN fantastic art work. hahaha. YEAH! YM U ROCKS!!! lol. U R E BEST!! ha.
yeah!!

* 为什么会变成这样呢?

生日不快乐??

2006-08-16T04:07:00.000-07:00

生日不快乐??

天天夜夜

2006-08-12T02:05:00.000-07:00

`天天夜夜

How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever
Ever survive　How do I　How do I　How do I live

当你的泪在微笑中滑落　
回忆的风吹着我走　我却情愿停留
当一颗心到时间的尽头　呼吸也会痛
可是我记得你给我的梦

每一天在你的怀里等待
每一夜我感觉你的存在　走过伤害
我回头看
是永远都灿烂的爱
这一次我决定勇敢去爱
这一次我陪你看到未来
So, how do I live
How do I live
How do I live without you

How do I live

当世界都遗忘我的时候　你的一切
对我来说　经过才能拥有
我明白一份真爱的背后藏着苦和忧
心痛的时候更深刻感受
每一天在你的怀里等待
每一夜我感觉你的存在　走过伤害
我回头看
是永远都灿烂的爱
这一次我决定勇敢去爱
这一次我陪你看到未来
So, how do I live
How do I live
How do I live without you

And tell me now

每一天在你的怀里等待
每一夜我感觉你的存在　走过伤害
我回头看
是永远都灿烂的爱
这一次我决定勇敢去爱
这一次我陪你看到未来
So, how do I live
How do I live
How do I live without you

没有你

2006-07-26T22:05:00.000-07:00

没有你``

我把回忆关进房间眼前不断浮现
有你陪我所有画面朋友说我变的沉默
变的有些难过邻居都听见了寂寞
也许时间给的太少没有珍惜你的好
城市太喧闹你没有听到我不该把手放掉
没有了你没有爱情什么都已经是空气
这些没有你的日子没有了自己
没有了你没有力气孤单香水却来袭
我想念你身上气味请给我互相拥抱的机会
你离开后我才明瞭幸福已经溜掉你也许都不会知道
也许时间给的太少没有珍惜你的好
城市太喧闹你没有听到我不该把手放掉
没有了你没有爱情什么都已经是空气
这些没有你的日子没有了自己
没有了你没有力气孤单香水却来袭
我想念你身上气味请给我互相拥抱的机会
爱情如果都是微笑那多美好天亮的太早在偷一秒
想你的笑想听你吵才发现思念发酵耶~

蚊子

2006-07-18T11:59:00.000-07:00

== 给第一个看到这个的死蚊子==

死蚊子在我心上咬了一下
害的我眼睛都变红了.
死蚊子还得意洋洋地讥笑我懦弱
气死我了!! 哈哈
死蚊子你听好:
垃圾桶的工作就是收垃圾
所以他是不会累的!
没垃圾收他反而会不自在
觉得自己没有用
因此不用感到到内疚
敢敢地地丢垃圾吧!
垃圾放在身上是会发臭的!!
懂吗!!??!

还有. 钱是赚不完的
不要这么卖命!
小心你的鼻子掉下来!
钱在世上有很多很多
不过身体只有一个
听的懂吗!! 哈哈

真心话:
谢谢你在
我愤怒时让我出气,
我开心时陪我度过,
我赖床时吵我起来,
我寂寞时陪我聊天,
我身病时陪我身病,
我发疯时陪我疯,
真的有那么多.. 那么多..

所以你不用觉得伤感..
死蚊子的陪伴
让垃圾桶很开心 =)
所以死蚊子
你也要活的开开心心!

*哈哈.要不要tissue???

2006-07-16T03:45:00.000-07:00

*AHEEEM. haha.. guess wad! I AM BLOGGING!! ok! hahahaa. my last post was like 6 weeks ago??? lol. okie. to those tt r gettin unfamiliar here I AM SEAH YI EN!! ex NCHS student. currently in SP! haahhaha. ok. here are some of the reason i m nt bloggin.

*WORLDCUP
*WORLDCUP
*DOTA
*WORLDCUP
*WORlDCUP
*DOTA

hahaha. ok. i know WORLDCUP over liao. but. i stil wan to tok abt it. lol. ENGLAND get ELIMINATE by portugal again! by PENALTIES! wtf wtf wtf. n my dearest LAMPARD miss the penalty. WTH CAN. lets hope he will get his scoring boots back when he return to chelsea. lol. AND C. RONALDO! stop DIVING! (though i admit i admire his diving skills) LOL. and rooney stop steppin on ppl's dick! lol. (though it's quite cool) haha. ok. in the end italy won. RESPECT to them. i jus dun wan france to win. dunno y. ha. but zidane headbutt. WOO. classic! hahaha. and to all the girls tt watch world cup. RESPECT to u too. lol. (except THOSE TT jus watch the last few mins of the FINAL) HAHA! ok. enuff of worldcup. let's proceed.

DOTA!
lol. i hate this game last time! and i got angry wif my frens when they r playin in lan shop. BUT now. i m so addicited to it! lol. mei you wan hui si. lol. BUT the bad part of it is IT MIGHT SPOIL FRENSHIP. lol. ok. shall nt elaborate on it. hahaha. Dota means xxxx of the ancient. lol. can someone tell me wad is xxx? i m noob la. haha.

ME!
SCHOOL SUX! SUX! SUX! SUX! haha. poly life= pon pon pon. lol. gt no mood to go sch at all. nth to look forward too. n ya. for the past few days i keep wakin up late. even when i got TWO alarm clock. lol. n today. suppose to wake up at 8 to do cip. i tried to slp earlier last nite. BUT. guess wad. I WOKE UP AT 1. lol. n i gotto complete 10hrs of cip by nxt week?!! god! ! ! help me! lol. n ya. i think i am pregnant. lol. i vomit like almost everydae?! haha.. run awhile vomit. eat too much vomit. take bus vomit. haha!

oh ya. todae 16th july is cw birthdae! happi birthdae. and 11 days ago 5th july is by's bdae. happy belated bdae!! hahaha

ok. shall stop here. lets hope i will have more mood to blog in the future.. lol. and ya. here's a qns i gt fr some HORNY website. haha

everynight you turn me on

you look at me throughout the day

u "slam" me hard wen i make noise

i am always by your side when u slp

malfunctions do occur

guess who i am?

127日

2006-06-30T18:50:00.000-07:00

不知不覺已經那麼久
我待在　這沒有你的冰河期中
即使回憶　不斷在重播
已經凍結的愛　也不會再暖和

把我很好　說的從容
(心就越必須　言不由衷)
我猶豫著　還要不要
承認我　放不開手

＊127日的分手　就有127顆心在痛
　一天一點　讓後悔　教會
　我怎麼能夠　忽略你感受
　你用多少眼淚　才找到離開我的理由
　也許一直容忍的都是你
　因為溫柔而為我　犯下的錯＊

眼中只有你美麗身影
耳朵只搜尋　所有關於你的消息
就算是我已經往前走
我也徘徊在所有美好往事左右

我的心　已死好久
(它失去了　生存的理由)
就在你不再愛我的那一天　停止跳動

REPEAT＊

Damn baby how we end up here
You know it's funny
I just miss you so much
I still remember holding you kissing you
I wish I could just see you right now
lying in my arms
Baby I'm waiting for you
Please just come back to me
I love you

127日的分手　留下一個好想你的我
一天一年　讓時間　證明
忘記你是我　做的假動作
我用了多少寂寞瞭解　你離開的理由
我沒有能挽回你的　權力
除非你能瞭解我　心有多痛

- 127日
Kang Ta & Vanness

RAINIE!!!!!!!!

2006-06-04T02:41:00.000-07:00

wahahaha. today 4th june 2006. YES! one of the happiest day i haf. lol. woohoo.

J8
okie. went to j8 todae to see YANG CHENG LING. haha. reach there at 3. and the event suppose to start at 3. but she haven come yet. so i faster go find a place to haf a good view. BUT. wah. j8 onli 4 storey tall. and its like everywhere packed wif ppl la. cant even find a place tt can see the stage la. (even at the forth level) so.. i decide to camp there. see gt place faster rush in. lol. there is this indian man. standin at a quite good position. so i think. er, he chou re nao onli. will leave one. so i stand behind him n wait. n tt idiot. stand there for so long la. i pek cek. like he uds wth is happenin liddat. but. nvm. finally found another spot. though its at level four. ha. and ya. TODAY is her bdae. woo. ha.

SO CLOSE!
okie so she sing two songs. play some games and her autograph section start la. den its like wahlao. so fast. and i haven even bought her cd yet. (i m waiting for her gai ban) so. jus stand there, look at her sign. so wu liao la. the crowd starts to go away la. so we decide to go too la. den go walk ard j8 yue xiang yue bu fu qi. i come all the way. nvr take signature is like so idiot la. so walk back. see the queue how long. kao. until basement 2 la. so walk away la. den after awhile i still bu si xin. go back see the queue. wahaha. become quite short liao la. gosh. i bth liao. so cw and i went to buy her cd and rush into the queue. ha. poor boyang gotto wait for us outside. lol. and yah. after 25 mins of waiting. tada. i m like 50 cm away fr her onli la. god! and her face is like so freaking small. my palm can fit her face la. i shld haf ask her whether her palm gt bigger den her face. and when she raise it up and compare i faster go push her hand. let her slap herself. lol. okie. nt funini. haha. see her my whole body soft la. lol. n she sae 'XIE XIE" to me. how mani of u will get the chance la. HA! woohhoo. so kai xin la. but i rrly hum la. wanted to sae happi bdae to her one. but. i onli manage to sae xie xie back to her onli. ha. I M SHY la. ha. okie!
okie here are some pictures. http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v198/idiotgurl/RainieAutoSession04Jun06/

thank u!
so. i am here to thanks boyang for pei-ing me to go and watch and wait for us like an idiot. ha. THANK YOU! and thanks chongwee to be crazy wif me over yang cheng ling. ha. THANK YOU. lol. and FUCK DEREK TAY TIAN REN to bluff me tt he gotto go pray his grandfather when in fact. he went to some class outing wif his darling. (cannot sae cannot la. why mus lie.) and use the pray grandpa excuse. lol. this is like the 4th of 5th time me hering this la. be more creative la. nxt time sae go pray great grandpa. mayb i will believe. lol. DO I RRLY LOOK TT DUMB? and u see. i go tell ppl tt derek cannot come. he go pray his grandpa. lol. everyone gif me the same reaction la. "ALRIGHT. this one again" or " GREAT. need pray so mani times a yr" ha. ha. ha. nvm. shall forgif him. he dun1 to go i force him for wad. but PLS dun lie. CANNOT sae CANNOT. ha. i wont scold u wan rite. i will jus kaobei u awhile. suan u awhile. cb u awhile. ha. jk la.

blah blah.
was feelin so fuckup for the past few daes la. so mani things @#@#@# inside me. and i gt no place to vent it out to make myself feel better. how i wish i could fuck everything into the rubbish bin. tie it up. throw to the garbage truck and TADA. gone. ha. but nvm. todae totally make me feel so happi la. so happi tt those fuckup things seems to be a happi things too. so. i have make a conclusion. no pt bothering abt those fuckup or sad things. u wont make it become a happi thing. BUT. go and find some happi things and do. u will make those fuckup things look happi too. OKIE. this is crap. lol. jus let me crap. YAO XIAO HEN RONG YI. KE SHI YAO KAI XIN HEN NAN. but. today. i m rrly happi. WOOHOOHOO. lol.

stoorry..

2006-05-29T01:43:00.000-07:00

「在意」的這種心情，往往是愛戀一開始正曖昧的時候。
摸不清楚自己對對方的感情，是喜歡？或是一般朋友的親切感？然而，在腦海中卻又揮不去他的身影，總莫名其妙地，會想起他的一切一切。
如果有一天，我們在路上重逢，而我告訴你：「我現在很幸福。」我一定是偽裝的。如果只能夠跟你重逢，而不是在一起共同生活。那怎麼會幸福呢？告訴你我很幸福，只是不想讓你知道其實我很傷心罷了。

*
當我知道他，心裡早已經有個喜歡的人後，我仍選擇將這份感覺永遠收藏在心底，我不願意他為了不想傷到我，而煩心該怎麼拒絕我，這種明知道的結果我不要。
我想還是默默的在他或許需要人談談時，陪他說說話，而他也仍會偶爾在你心傷時，幫你想想辦法，雖然他不知道你的心傷，是為了他，我想做了這個決定之後，我會慢慢走出來的，在我慢習慣這份孤單、這份心傷時，你就不用再為我擔心了，這份難過就由我自己擔吧！我是希望你也能幸福的生活。

*hahaha. took them fr rainie's blog. find it quite meaningful and make sense.

sometimes. i really really thinks babies are veri fortunate. so innocent. so pure. no trouble. no problem. how i wish i could be like them. cry all u wan when u fuckin sad. so innocent tt u wont think of the bad stuff. blah blah blah.

*下一次微笑, 你会看到放晴的感觉多么好.. hahah. mayb i shld believe this and see whether it will happen.

depression.

2006-05-28T02:48:00.000-07:00

i seriously thinks tt i am dying. fever on and off for days. nauseous. sore eyes. blah~ i am feelin so moody, sad, fuckup, angry todae. DEPRESSION! k enuff of all dis crap.
Blogging
suddenly i find bloggin for me is gettin faker n faker. my motive to haf a blog is to vent my anger. express my feelin tt i hide deep inside. but. now. i m jus writing for the sake of letting ppl see. and when i m feelin fuckup sad or wad i dare not to sae it out anymore. i dun dare this. i dun dare tt. mani mani dun dare. in short. I M HUMJI. ya. so why the hell i m still bloggin? simple. i wan to attract attention. i admit. I AM AN ATTENTION SEEKER. I WAN ATTENTION. I AM AFRAID TO BE LONELY. ya. why the hell i go gaga over rainie or kelly. cos. at least when i m alone. i gt smth to do. smth to keep my fuckin mind and my fuckin heart occupied. ya. dats the reason. why am i so fuckin lame. cos. i wan to entertain myself. make my mood better. if u find one night i m tokin rubbish tokin tons of lousy lame stuff to u. u can imagine how bad my mood is. ya. why the hell i act to be happi. cos i m a sucker. i dun wan to show it out. i dun like to show it out anymore. no point putting how sad sad sad i am as my msn nick. wad for? ya. attract attention to wish tt SOMEONE of u will come care abt u. right? this is really how i feel. i m jus being frank. i m not tryin to xialan anyone or wad. ya. mayb i m wrong. mayb u r brave to admit u r sad. well. if tts they way. i respect u. seriously.
MASK
sometimes. i find wearing a mask makes ur life better. u wont haf to face the outcome directly. therefore making u able to stand up again. easier? ya. giving out 100% means if u fail. u get 100% back into ur face. big impact. ya. in life it doesnt means tt by giving out 100% will gt wad u wan to get. ya. i know. u all will sae. at least u try us best. blah blah. but. seriously THINK. u had tried ur best and u didnt achieve it. how useless u r. ya.

this is how i feel and how i think now. if u disagree wif me. dun like wad i sae. i m sry den. dun argue wif me. it's useless. ya.thanks.

假装多好　依然是
依然是　暧昧的tone调
一个人无理取闹
两人世界的煎熬
我被自己困在自己设下的圈套

小丑鱼好可怜.
找不到　那些美好..
假装多好.

:((((((((

2006-05-24T02:56:00.000-07:00

Bleah.. haha
Lalala
okie. its 2.05 now. n i m suppose to haf lesson tml morning at 8. i gotto leave my hse at 7 so i gotto wake up at 6. i gotto haf a good dream at 5. wake up and pee at 4. adjust my aircon temp at 3. hahha. okie enuff of crap. BUT. haha. i m not goin sch tml. YEAH! PON PON PON. my left eyes swollen since sat. MUST BE PEEP AT SOME GIRLS den got bao ying. lol. I KNOW u all will sae dat. haha. tml shall go see doctor and take mc. haha. take 2 week mc!
CLASS.
i slept at 9 on moondae night. GOD. haa. and i woke at 3. tried to go back to slp but i cant. GUESS wad i do. HAHA. i watch two eps of er mo zai shen bian! lol. RAINIE RAINIE RAINIE. lol. i m crazy abt her la. ha. watch until 6. and did my daily routine. i m so hyper when i went out of my hse la but ARGH! reach sch. i onli left ban tiao ming la. my mood= thunder+lightning+raining( RAINIE!) haha okie, yah. GUESS who to suffer. CHIEW CHONG WEE. gave him some fuckin attiude in class. haha. POOR cw. first lesson i was like looking at my laptop and pretend doin work while in fact i m watching ER MO. (my mood still ok) lol. WTH. haha. and to all ppl there is this thing call laptop and wirless network in SP. haha. second lesson. BOO. BOO. BOO. not in the mood to act anymore. THUNDERSTORM began. i start criticising cw dis and dat. he is so dumb la. he forget his spec. teacher ask him to ans qns. he cannot see. turn to me. den teacher scold him. i rrly f up wif him. he dunno how to protect himself la. i told the teacher he forgot his spec and the teacher is like. okie. okie. sorry. haha. den all my $@$@# start pouring all over cw. lol.
*ain't moodswing the cutest things. haha
HOME
WENT Home after first 2 lesson. suppose to have 2 more lesson. but i rrly heck care le la. i need some slp. When i reach home. sudd. i became lively again. hhaa. watch I guess which i jus dwl finish. RAINIE RAINIE. lol. take a nap after the show. wanted to wake up at 5 to watch bai fen bai. i rmb me waking up at 5 on tv and sms-ing. everything is like so real la. i saw luo zhi xiang tokin. blah blah blah. in the end. i m jus dreaming! i think my soul jump out la. and do all tt. ling hu chu qiao! haha
ER MO ZAI SHEN BIAN
okie. it's really a super nice show la. if u those cheena and go gaga over dram type of person. haha. 9.5/10 k! 0.5 lost for having too much kissing scenes. HAHA! i m feelin so 暧昧 now la. hahah. relook at the lyrics of 暧昧. omg. so much hui-ling(feeling) la. haha. and this song i m playing now只想爱你. oh man! sometimes it's good to listen to an old album again. u will get alot of different thinking.

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽停在这里
只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景
到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还想你

只想爱你好想每天睁开眼睛就能看到你
我知道我偶尔有一点任性
不管你做任何决定究竟爱我还是逃避
sorry 我还是不会放弃
sorry 我还是不会放弃爱你..

suddenly i realise tt my heart is beating..
我是有软弱的一面的..

MISSION!

2006-05-21T04:30:00.000-07:00

hahah. i m here to blog. yeah. sound so retard. lol
DragonBoat
alright. went db for the first time on mondae. omg. its so fuckin RELAXIN. ahah. it stat fr 5. first we haf to do pullup for 60 times. gosh. EASY la. den gotto run 2.4 after pull up. my stamina veri good la. so ez. den we kena punish do push up 50 times. aiya. ez again. after tt. do some crunches. den go pool practice pedaling. haha. after tt went gym. bell bar 15kg liddat do 90 times. haha. end at 930. wow. super relaxin ar.lol. KAO! hhah.The nxt dae. i pon sch. lol. wad a weak ass i am. but i will pon is becos i get influence k. GT SOMEBODY EVERYDAE PON. WAHLAO. I HEAR LE ALSO WILL FOLLOW right. ha. WAD A BAD FREN. okie. i cant even raise my hand tt dae. super strain. like fuck.
SERIES OF UNFORTUNATE EVENTS
firstly. my com kena some spyware which led to some virus attack. i spend abt 5 hr in total clearing it. it sucks. den i complete dwl the er mo zai shen bian. i was like so happi. n den i accidentally delete it. god! uhhuh. den i realise my stupid creative zen micro spoil again. dun ever buy creative product. sucks. den my hp. i leave it on the edge on the table n fall asleep. n DEN SOMEBODY msg me. n it drop on the floor. blood all over on the floor. haha. the battery the cover the keypad all fly oout. god. when i fix everythin back. the phone cant start. WAD AN ASS! all dis happen within a few dae. can u all see how fcuk up i am.
WEDNESDAY
yah. its champion league final! were suppose to take a nap b4 tt match start. n den. SOME BIG THING HAPPEN TO SOMEBODY. my nap gone. GONE! haha. arsenal lost to barca. sad la. i hate arsenal but i hate barca more. so i support arsenal tt night. on the phone wif boyang the whole match. he is so sad when barca won. OH. serve u right. lol.
THURSDAY
sleep one n half hr n go to sch. took my test. n i onli use 1o mins to finish it. hha. fuck. waste my time goin sch. after dat PON LESSON AGAIN. DIE! I SHLD NT HAF MAKE THIS KIND OF FREN. PON PON PON. LOL.
FRIDAY
nth much happen. lol.
TODAY
finally re dwl finish er mo zai shen bian. chiong 4 eps todae. one eps is 1hr 20 min k. yang cheng ling is super cute k. but i cant stanf it when there is so mani kissin scene in dat show. ahha. lol. feel veri fcuk up jus now. veri bu shuang.dunno y. pms. luckily roy send me the mr brown bird thingy.lol.THX! it's 1000000000times BETTER DEN SOME BAR JOKES. SO LOUSY. HAHA. AND SOME LOUSY SCARY VIDEO. I HATE IT WHEN FRIENDS LIE. AND WHEN DEY DUN LISTEN. WHERE U GET A FREN TT SEND U SCARY PRANK VIDEO WHEN U FEEL FUCK UP? HOW SUCKY IT IS. DEN WHEN I FEEL LIKE TOKIN TO SOMEONE AND U TELL ME TT U R SLEEPY N WAN TO SLP. I SACRIFICE MY SLEEP TT DAE DEN U LIDDAT TREAT ME. FREN? BULLSHIT. SOMETIMES I FEEL BETTER WITHOUT HAVIN THIS FREN.

*yah. this post is jus bullshit. i m jus feelin bored and wan to suan somebody. joking la dun take it into ur little heart.haha. none of them are facts. it's all bullshit. i swear la. lol.

back~

2006-05-13T06:06:00.000-07:00

okie. i'm back bloggin. wanted to write lots of thing jus now. was havin tt bloggin mood. but now it's gone. HA. it's like there is so mani things i wanted to sae jus now and now it's gone. haha. okie. i shall jus crap smth out
SCHOOL
was tokin to ym jus now. told her how bored i am in SP. and instead of consolin me. SHE add make me feel worse. haha. Keep on tellin me how good TP is how fun TP is. GOSH~! how i wish my o lvl sci get a b3. and now i wont be sufferin. i get a b3. i will be studyin BIT in tp! den! FUN FUN FUN! haha. i took combine science n i got a c6! it's like WTF right. haha. somemore i got tution for science! wow. my tutor sms me and ask me abt my result and i dun even dare to reply her. It's like all her student get at least b3 and i get wad?! C6?! haha. nvm. FORGET abt it. and YA. my class all the peeps are ANG MO PAI. omg. i hate it. i gt problem presentin my true self infront of others in ENGLISH. so my frens. SPEAK chinese wif me! and i can crap wif u till u shuang. ha. Well. i know u all can sae there is still chongwee in my class. at least i gt someone to pei me. BUT. NO! i seriously think tt he HATE me. cos i keep criticise him. i keep ji siao him. HA. and he dun understand dat i m jus jokin and tot it's real. It's quite frustrating being wif him during serious time. he will tok to me in a serious tone and tell me bullshit. and he keep 'zhen de zhen de wo mei you pian ni' ARGH!!!! u guys wont udst it. i know he is a nice person. i am a bad person therefore we cant clique.
RAINIE DAYS!
hahaha. i m so into YANG CHENG LING nowadaes. lol. i was watchin i guess tt dae. n she clips up her hair. and it's like OMG! haha. i m obsessed wif girls tt clip their hair up! wahahha! after tt i went dwl loads of wallpaper of her n dwl lots of eposide of i guess. hahah. n yes! er mo zai sheng bian. She act in tt show! GOSH!! lol. i still like kelly la. hhaa. but. since it is rainin nowadaes i shall go more into RAINIE. hahaha. dammn lame la.
ELITEZ
last sat. went pasir ris to haf soccer match. so sway. jus when we get off the bus. it started rainin. ha. so mani of them were there. roy kw derek cw yc shang boyang masam weeta rong nizar john. almost full team liao. it's super fun despite the muddy field. the field was like milo man! haha. final score 5-5. but we win them on penalties. al elitez player score beside masam. haha. FUN. went to the park toilet to wash up after tt. and the whole toilet was in a mess. on the bus it's like so close la. all of us. crappin. laughin. TEAM SPIRIT! yes!
GAY
n ya. i jus realise there are so mani gays in SINGAPORE. lol. colin and kero! they are two male in luv wif each other. n fey have a blog. and they will sae sweet stuff in the blog. OMFG. haha. i shall link them. ppl that are interested u can go and see. they upload their pics too. it all the bottom of the page. hah. take a look. see if anyone of them look like ur fren. haha!
ERM
jus watched one of the eposide of i guess tt i've dwl. tt eps is AH YA last eps. SHE's leaving i guess. Tt's sad la. the whole eps jacky wu is like so fuckin low la. n can see he is dammn sad. ha. he sang the song 永保安康 to her. it's so touching la. super sad. wanted to make t my blog song. but i cant find a fast loading link.
hai.
sudd miss sec days again. so many fun things man. At least in class i got youmin , huishi. waiyee in class to tok abt show tok abt gossip. i gt shaik saybing vicho to fool around wif me to crap wif me. Den i gt so mani after sch activities wif my brathers.i got glorious ppl to haf fun wif. i got elitez to play soccer wif to crap wif. i got pamela samantha they all during band. hai. 我好挂念那些昨天. so mani mani flashback now. fr sec one camp to prom night. all the daes we haf. the happy times. hai. I MISS ALL OF THEM.

shaik's bdae

2006-05-02T00:06:00.000-07:00

YEAH. todae ish shaik's bdae eve. haha. went out wif him n co. celebrate. yah. went marina square cafel cartel. eat n crap wif each other. ordered a setmeal for 5 n onli 3 of us are eating. super lot la. in the end nvr finish it haha. remind us of nchs life again. ha. wtf. den gave him a surprise take the cake out. haha. HE is so touched la. HAHA. haf fun there.
life?
when someone has a sestback or back. he tells himself it's alright. this shall be the new begining. Totally CRAP. BULLSHIT. it's jus lyin to himself. tryin to sae this to an wei himself. make himself feel better. mayb tt's life .hai. hai hai. while some other ppl. they dun even dare to try. scared of dis scared of dat. afraid of setback. n yet try to act tough infront of ppl. u may ask WAD FOR? hai. i dunno too. mayb tt's life again.
有一种
爱它曾经住在我心里
陪伴我熬过多少个无声哭泣
不懂爱情我的心如此无力
bought kelly gai ban cd jus now. hai. $20.95. quite ex la. some more not more changes in the cd. the lyrics book also nvr change. like kena cheated liddat. but nvm. the added song is nice December 下雪的冬天. getting emotional. hai. thinkin abt alot of things.breakin dwn soon. hai. my life. WOW! mayb i should rrly stop cursing so much. n hope dat things will get better for me.

冰冷的雪冻结所有情节
我不愿爱在回忆里搁浅
对或不对 爱开始也是凭感觉
有幸福就难免伤悲

December 下着雪的冬天
看窗外白茫茫的一片
Remember 我们许下的愿
雪默默无言将它冰结成点
忽然间又想起那一场离别

冰冷的雪冻结所有情节
我不愿爱在回忆里搁浅
我面对也试着去了解
我也只能接受这一切
你我的一切都已是个今天
何必再期待有另一个往前
心却痛着 体验了每一个关键
忘记总是要一点时间

Remember 我们许下的愿
雪默默无言将它冰结成点
忽然间又想起那一场离别

冰冷的雪冻结所有情节
我不愿爱在回忆里搁浅
我面对也试着去了解
我也只能接受这一切
你我的一切都已是个今天
何必再期待有另一个往前
心却痛着 体验了每一个关键
忘记总是要一点时间

离别并非都是幸福的终点
或许他才是 他是幸福的遇见

冰冷的雪冻结所有情节
我不愿爱在回忆里搁浅
我面对也试着去了解
我也只能接受这一切
你我的一切都已是个今天
何必再期待有另一个往前
心却痛着 体验了每一个关键
忘记总是要一点时间

一定会有那么一天

empty...

2006-05-01T02:11:00.000-07:00

was listening to simple plan untitled. n now i m stuck wif this song. i used to listen this song when i m sad in the past. ha. jus keep repeating repeating n repeating. hai. suddenly the weird empty feelin is back. this song remind me of my happy time wif my brather my classmate my team mate. SADDENING la. NCHS life is nt tt lousy la. 1 glorious 2 glorious 3 gregarious 4 gregarious rocks la. hai. so mani mani things tt happen. good n bad. n now. hai. still rmb sec1 tt time. i m thinkin wow. 4 yrs of sec sch life. so long. n now. TADA. i m in poly already. how i wish it could be longer. or we restart it again. back to the sec1 camp. GUAN HUAI FANG SHI. lol. HA.
hai hai hai. so mani things stuck in my mind now. feelin so @#$#@%^ inside. n yet i cant explain y i m feelin dat. fuck. yes, i haf derek masam by cw wif me at sp. but. jus find it hard to tell them things at time. sb is at TP. fuck. i find it easier to share things wif him. i dunno y. mayb becos i know him for 11 yrs liao. n the tu dou also so far. hahaha. hai. LIFE. findin it more n more fuck up.hai. my temper getting more n more worst. ( never been good before ) hai. shall end her. enjoy this song. it's really nice. the lyrics is so .. hai

UNTITLED

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how 
I can't remember why 
I'm lying here tonight 

And I can't stand the pain 
And I can't make it go away 
No I can't stand the pain 

How could this happen to me?
I've made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life 
I just wanna scream 
How could this happen to me?

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again 

So I try to hold on
On to a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done 
No I can't

How could this happen to me?
I've made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away 
I'm sick of this life 
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

I've made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on 
As I'm fading away 
I'm sick of this life 
I just wanna scream 
How could this happen to me?

HOHOHO

2006-04-28T08:28:00.000-07:00

HOHOHO. i m back. hahaha. i m a busy man la. no time to update.. HAHA. yes. POLY LIFE starts like 3 weeks ago n i start tokin abt it now. HA. ya. GOT into ecc class 1a02. woo. haha. make new frens. yah. ha. quite fun la the class. n ytd chong wee got into my class. HAHA. he appeal for ECC n got in. hahaha. the first week was orientation. i was fuckin quiet la. like one idiot liddat. hahah. den second week start tokin crap wif each other n ya. haha. time fly fast. this week was quite boring though. seems like a long long week. lessons was super boring lah. keep fallin asleep in class. hhaa. n finally i survie till fridae. wad a long week!
OH YA. fuck. onli 10% of my course peeps are girls. 10%!! wtf man. n last time when i m in 4G its like there is onli ten guys in the class onli lor. the other all girls. how m i goin to adapt to dis big change!!! i m goin to be gay soon man. hahahhah. den see some xinfu asshole study in np business course surrounded by some mani girls n take photo n upload bth sia. HAHHA. if u all dunno who i m tokin. go to my fren list. click on my last fren n u will know! HAHA! i m goin to be gay soon la. lol. 3 yrs poly no girls den later 3 yr NS. hahahah. i m lacking ying in my life la. YING YANG not balance. HAHA. so all my FEMALE fren. tok to me more!! i miss u all! haha. i sound fuckin despo. haha.
MENG PING TU gonna end soon. WTH! kelly dying la. shit. let's request for more eposides. hahah. n oh ya. kelly cd gt gai ban. gt new song n MTVs. labour dae comin. any one wan buy tt n gif me as labour dae present? WAHAHA..
okie. shall end here. PPL ON UR SPEAKER AND LISTEN my blog song. haha. it's a old jay song. but so? its nice! ha. BYE!

Happy Birthday

2006-04-08T03:00:00.000-07:00

为什么奶昔不甜为什么风景不美
因为你在身边世界只剩下一个焦点
一开始你就特别从眼神就很体贴
我们都不穿鞋光着脚穿越耳语流言

在这之前我到底是谁你出现
我眼前一瞬间一切都改变

happy birth day 你就在我身边
和你吃苦一生胜过天堂一天

happy birth day 告别忧伤昨天
自从遇见了你才是我 happy birth day

风筝和风在缠绵诗人和诗在兜圈
你坐在我旁边这一种快乐无法描写
世界我环游一圈看很多空中小姐
都没有比你美第一名模也只能闪边

为什么快乐也会流下眼泪？
灌溉了我的荒野开满了玫瑰
我不累我不睡我不休息我不阖眼
我不想浪费每一秒在这个有你的世界

a nicce song. wahaha. i jus cant slp. therefore decided to do smth to my blog. ha. gotto wake up at 6am to go SWEEP GRAVE. CRAZY. n it's like 3am now. hahahaa..

wad a dae..

2006-04-02T17:58:00.000-07:00

*ta da* yes! after 2 yrs of tokin on makin jerseys. we finally. got our jersey. haha. yeah. i m #17. c.r for portugal. scott parker for newcastle. fandi ahmad for singapore. dun play play k. i wanted #7 but. fuckin shaun took it. lol. change my mind to #23 but fuckin roy luv it so much.. ha. so i took #17. yeah. heres my story. went to play street socer. almost the whole team came (for the skae of collecting the jersey. haha. i wore my jersey n start playin. n guess wad. i gt injured after jus 10 mins of playin. wtf. JINX! haha. masam was takin a shot. i went to block it n his fuckin shot hit my left ankle. i immediately felt smth goona be wrong. i fall awkwardly n YES! i tear my ligament or wad. it was fuckin pain. they came over to me n i shouted FUCK OFF to dem. ha. bad temper. i went out to rest for a while. n went back playin after a while. haha. stubborn fck i am. i couldnt run at all. but i dun wan to go out. ppl like boyang n shang makes my blood boil. they know i m injured but they jus keep on askin me to run ard. wtf. n when i dun they gt frustrated. its street soccer. nt official match for my fuckin god sake. u expect me to wake up early in the morning n play for jus 10 min n sit under the hot sun to look at u all play?!? DEREK SPONSOR ME 5$ to TAKE CAB HOME. can u ppl believe it?ha

*beautiful artpiece fr masam ong. haha.
i cant do sports for 1 mth. wtf!? i wan to die. lol. n i haf make up my mind. i m gonna jump at orchard. die at orchard u everydae gt free movie to watch free cds to listen n can shop like mad. ha. anyone wan accompany me? lol. dammn lame la. campus final tonite. RENFRED can go fuck. ha. i dun mind the other 3 win but nt RENFRED. lol.

yeah

2006-03-27T01:40:00.000-08:00

ya. woo. went running jus now. CAN U BELIEVE IT? haha. run alone. wif my ipod. listening those sad sad song. ahaha. veri weird combination i know. RUNNING do numb ur brain for a while man. so if u are sad or wad. RUN TILL U DIE. wooo. but dun eat b4 u run. i vominted jus now. OMFG. lol. dere r other runner ard too. so paiseh. haha. booo. like an idiot. lesson learn! haha.

my heart in tp. mind in sp. wtf shld i do. n tan you min. u r makin me more she bu de sp n ciang qu tp. can i study one n half yr in sp nthe other one n half in tp? haha. sz sam n xe. thx anyway. though u all din help me at all. hah. n yeah hq. run run run. ha! run till we die. LOL.

hai hai hai. y dun god let time go back to sec 4 n i promise to study fuckin hard . haha. LOL. GOD CAN U HEAR ME??? dammn lame la. haha. oh. i can do the theory of KNOWLEDGE. haha

* 其實.. 人不開心的時候,是可以裝的開心的.

LIFE

2006-03-26T15:52:00.000-08:00

kelly's blog
suddenly gt the urge to blog. ha. guess wad. i found kelly's BLOG. kelly pan jia li BLOG. omg. i was searchin for her pic in yahoo when sudd i saw this link to her blog. iat first i tot must be some bian tai like go setup a blog for her. but den. aha, NO. its her. the blog is abt 2 yrs old liao. lol. last post was july 26 20005. boo. she stop udating after the pss thing. read all her entry. veri de diff fr the kelly which we see on tv. she was sad, empty, n lonely at part of her life too. den her entries most of it is in chinese. COOL. her entries make me think alot. rrly alot. sudd the same old qns pop out in my mind again. wtf is life. wtf is dat. hai

life?
y does some ppls will also be so lucky. they jus need to use some tiny effort to gt wad they wan n y does some will always haf tough life n need to work so super hard to achieve the thiing they wanted n in the end fail. jus visit my baby cousin. ha. he is god dammn cute but a cry baby. ass him. babies r the most fortunate ppl in the world. they haf no worries. they haf no pressure. n they jus need to cry n will get wad they wan. y cant we haf the "power" too. ha. i rmb me sayin this. "u r havin a tough life now cos god is training u now for ur bright future." ha. tts bullshit. bullshit. big time. LIFE LIFE LIFE. can someone tell me how to make it a better one? i m so freakin fuckup inside. which i dunno y.

there is dis phrase which kelly worte " why some ppl try to act tough n hide their feelin inside when they r actually feelin depress. " i gt an answer to it. i act funni. try to b lame cos i wan to numb myself. i wan myself to feel good. i wan to tell myself i m happi. i m nt sad. i haf no worries. yeah! i act tough cos i dun1 to affect other ppl mood. HAHA. i think this is the cause of my constant mood swing n bad temper. WOO. i hate it when i m tokin smth serious n ppl start thinkin i m ji siao-ing dem. i hate it. this make me feel so .. hai . mei you ren liao jie wo. ye mei you ren ken qu chang shi liao jie wo...

appeal result
my tp appeal out liao. i cant get into tp business but stillcan go to tp engineerrin. but i dun liek engineerin at all. shld i stay at sp or go tp. i rrly dunno . so many factors for mr to stay in sp n so mani reason for me to go to tp. hai. wo hen fan! zhen de hen fan. i m jus one mark away fr gettin into the businees course. one mark! tts LIFE man. woo. hai.

smth fr kelly's blog

喜歡下雨，因為你不會知道我流淚..
喜歡發呆....因為你不會知道我想你...
喜歡孤單....因為你不會發現我愛你...
喜歡在你身邊..因為你是我快樂的唯一因素..

shall end here. jus realise i hardly blog things tt r happy in my life. hope it will happen soon. hai. SORRY my frens. i jus need some place to vent.

失眠的睡美人

2006-03-23T05:55:00.000-08:00

失眠的睡美人

故事最后会有哪些情节
可以当纪念曾经你说
要最疼我要最想我
每天每天

在你身后
感觉就像一条透明的抛物线
当它下遂
再美的童话也会失去感觉

睡美人想着谁想到失眠
空荡荡是你给我的堡垒
我不说只希望你能了解
就算没有王子
想你在身边
睡美人想什么想到失眠
我愿意拥有公主的眼泪
安静的等着你每一夜
喜欢就是这样
酸酸甜甜的滋味

yeah. new song fr yang cheng ling.woo. dammn nice la. ppl listen it in a quiet nite. bet u will be touched by it. haha. dun cry ar. i no tissue. HAHA. 我也失眠. help!

boo. life sux. work sux. my hp sux. my msn sux. BOO! i m updatin for the sake of updating. ha.

my appeal letter nt yet receive. HOPELESS? hai.

shall update nicely the nxt time. BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

约定

2006-03-18T05:15:00.000-08:00

说好的三年不见面
用我们的爱把时间留住
你笑着说这是我们的考验我们的约定
就这样三年又过了
我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼等你的出现
空气中吻你的脸
我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
他也偷偷的掉泪了
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想他会告诉你的我更爱你了
我想他会告诉你的
你会记得我们的约定
听着风我也笑了
他一定会告诉你的我更爱你了

wahaha. so stuck in dis song. super nice la. go dwl!!! hhaah NO. go buy la. lol.

ALRIGHT.

2006-03-06T02:33:00.000-08:00

ya ya. so mani mani things happen

JAE
ya. i got into the stupid electronic computer n communication engineering at sp as expected. derek n masam got into the same course as me. yeah? BULLSHIT ASS. they r appealin out. still rmb they sayin " if i sway sawy gt into this course den i ren ming lor " ha. great brathers. but nvm. it's theirr life. they can do wad dey wan. fuck care them. will be happier w/o them. chong wee n boyang got into sp too. but they are appealin too. but sttill stickin to sp. jus change course. looks like i m the onli one not appealin. ( i wanted) but wtf? like i can choose. yusheng got into the business course in tp. n he ggt the same pts as me. haf the urge in goin tp. lost of frens goin there too . ha. if i do tt wad diff m i wif d n m. ha. hope will make better frens at sp. ha. mayb its my fault? it's their future. y shld i tok so much. ya. i sux. but pls. nxt time tok wif ur brain on. not tok n forget. or tok n act dumb. tok wif ur brain. dun fu yan wo. i dun like it. i rather u sae it out. k thks. stop sayin "steady la steady la" n den do idiotic stuff. thank u. u will be muchly appreciated.

buscard.
my fuckin buscard were confiscated by the bus driver. fuck him. argue wif him . but. failed. n the card which go thru thick n thin during o lvl is gone. GONE. ha. no more student meals n price for me.

ya. put away all those shits i've complained. lets tok abt some happi things. yeah. yeah. i cant think of ani? HA. wtf? okie. ya. SOCCER. ya. played it on sat mornig. yes. shld be meetin in cp at 830 in the mornign. yeah. reach there at 845. wow. great. none of tthem reached. but i m not surprised by it at all. its our team tradition liao la. get old chang kee for breakfast. ha. den when i was playin halfway. lol. i vomited. yes. haha. the porridge came out. lol. shld haf take a bowl n collect it. den gif ppl eat. lol. recycle la. lol . yeah. soccer is fun.

n yes. 梦。拼图. wahaha. kelly is dammn freakin chio/cute/pretty/adorable/blah/blah/blah.. haha. watched it for so mani mani times. n i jus wont get sian over it. think can bei de tai chi liao.haha. 'shaui liao bu qi ar. wo da ni bian zhu tou ar. " haha. yes. u can call me siao. but. haha. i m siao la. lol. if u haf miss it. lol. dun b sad. i haf upload it into my blog. haha. it load quite fast. lol. so watch it my fren. lol. heard tt she is goin to sr to perform nxt fridae. ani SR peeps here? help me take photo la. lol. n yes. yes. SAMANTHA haf the friday weekly which haf her as backpage. lol. n she kept it for me. wahseh. gan dong leh. wahaha. THANK YOU VERI MUCH. lol. hope she rmb to pass to me b4 sellin to the karang guni. lol. my mood sudd become good liao. lol.

nchs anniversary dinner. or mayb lunch
waha. yes. supposingly meetin shaik n co. at 1045. but i was late. cos. aiya. skip this. reach the country club at 12. country club leh. wahseh. make me wear till so formal. n den. haha. great restaurant we haf. n mayb not even restaurant. its jus an empty place wif some decoration n buffets. haha. i tot i went into the wrong place at first. tot it was some elderly meetin at first. lol. n the food was dammn NICE. bloody shit. lose my appetite upson seeing it. but i pay for the tixs liao . gotoo eat. or else waste $. haha. we sitted like 15mins n den cannot tahan liao. haha. my whole grp stand up n left the hall. lol. went arcading instead. dammn cheap 40ct one game, lol. but no aircon. den went pool-ing. wahseh. the whole pool room filled wif us. lol. dammn noisy la. lol. the girls fa-ing hua chi takin pics of themself. den the guys kaobei lai kaobei qu. lol . but its quite fun la. haha. after tt went cine watch big mama hse 2. lol. DAMMN funni la tt show. lol. go watch go watch. lol. n yes ym is like so crazy goin oversea. first she called us to go cruise trip den taipei. n now KL. wahseh. might as well go iceland. lol. hah. n she sae my blog look childish. wtf? it rox k.

yah. this is a long post. sudd haf the mood to blog todae. haha. to complain abt my miserable life. fuck it. lol. n ya i m workin for sunpage soon. do pickup my call or reply my sms. i need u all. hhaa.

fcuk u

2006-02-24T09:48:00.000-08:00

i m crazy!!!!!!!
pardon me!!!!

mood swing..

2006-02-19T04:15:00.000-08:00

feelin veri down now. m i suffering from depression?? one moment i can be so high n the other i can feel so fuck up. worst is the ppls ard me gotto suffer. argH! fuck fuck fuck! hai. was lyin on mybed for so long jus now. couldnt sleep. thought of bloggin. there was so mani things i wanted to kaobei on. but now. jus simply dunno wad to type. argh!! SAD

played soccer in the afternoon todae. lost again. wtf. there doesnt seems to be any teamwork for my team anymore. everyone jus play like shit. n complainin abt each other. quarrelin. WTF. haf a deep cut near my shin. ha. there is this guy whch i doesnt like his playin style. i wan to injured him. yes i wan to. i ran in to challange him. slide him. ha. he got pass me. n i land on the sandy part of the pitch. great. useless me. n when i was findin for the onli sub we haf. he haf went home. cos he need to go out wif his gf. ha. ELITEZ FC? bullshit. 5-1 socreline? BULLSHIT. where is the mighty elitez? argh! DISSAPONTED.

i was thinkin jus now. wads the mu di of me living? n i cant gif an answer to it. ha. argh!! FUNNI. my studies sux. my lifw sux. everything sux.

stuck on kelly's you xie ai and fei ai bu ke now. this two songs are the sentimental type. hear le make myself more depress onli. HAHA. but. i jus luv them! esp. the lyrics. i cant type chinese. or else i wil publish them out.

summary : yien's life= bullshit.

KELLY ROCKS!!!!!!!

2006-02-16T10:03:00.000-08:00

wooHOO . i mback
KELLY
yes! kelly cd is finally out. bought it ytd. 28.90. ex sia. bUT worth it! hhaa so mani free gift. the songs are super nice lor. wahseh. all of them r nice. i m nt lying! n yes. the song playin in my blog. JI SHI ZHA DAN. ha. my favourite ! n it is compose by KELLY! whahah. SUPPORT kelly.!! haha if 28.90 is too ex buy the 18.90 one also can. ANYONE tt buy the 18.90 version pls lend me the cd n scan the cover. she look super pretty in tt. OMG! haha, im mad! i m gonna be crazy over kelly for at least one mth liao. KELLY's FEVER is back. hahaha. BUY HER CD BUY HER CD BUY HER CD!!!!haha .

result
got my result last week. feel okie abt it. i didnt fail any subject. YEAH. quarrel wif my parents over wad course to study in poly. tot they will not interfere abt it. i LONG for business course for so long liao lor. kao. now ask me to gifup on it. saw wad no future for guys. ask me take engineering. wakao i dun even know a shit abt engineerin lor. kao. on the last dae of jae submission i quarrel wif them. in the end my mother tell me dis in a sacarstic way " u wan study wad study wad la. or else nxt time blame us." kao wtf. u think i can study well without you all de support la. GREAT la. in the end i put business as my first two choice den engineering. but i know i sure get into engineerin one. cos the business courses i put require veri low pts. hai. sad la. nvvr expect my parents to become liddat. tot they will uds me! ASS them, arGH! now i m defitnely goin to SP. Yeah i shld be happi abt it. my target poly. but now. it feel so nth inside me. BULLSHIT man, argh!

valentime day/masam bday
meet by n cw early in the morning. was intendin to go buy flower for the girls. they sae no flower they wont go out wif us. (GREAT FREN) haha. went to look for flower at hougang greeen at first. wakao. the market sell flower at 15$ per stock. n it is FROM MARKET, bullshit. we decided not to buy from there n proceed to cp. there is dis flower shop at cp. which is much more high class. BUT here comes the dilema. super ex. haha n then. we r jus buying for frens. not girls we like. haha. we stand outside the flower shop thinkin whether we shld buy for super long. n den i decided to buy. make them happi la. haha. otherwise so kelian for them. haha. n then i bought a sunflower wif some nice packagin for abt 40 dollar. OMG! haha by n cw bought roses. abt 40$ too. haha. n i feelin rich bought two extra stalk of fake flowers. lol. ex ex ex. lol. meet sb masam evelyn huishi n youmin after tt. i gave flower to evelyn by gave to huishi n chongwee to youmin. derek was suppose to gave to qingyun but he didnt buy. GREAT man. lol. went to kbox after tt. haha . i sing the most la. lol. so HIGH! we dedicate a birthdae song to masam . haha. he almost cry. tears in his eyes. lol . veri touched! lol, after tt meet qingyun ming shang n roy. eat at cafe cartel. haha. take alot of picture tt dae. the girls are carzy. lol. after tt went to esplanade. to ka jiao the couple there. haha. cut masam cake over there. lol. gave him a suprise. lol . he is super touch again. lol . tts wad brather for okie. lol. after tt went walk walk. then decided to took a cab home. bullshit cab drivers. none of them wanted to stop. n its like ten empty went pass us n none of them stop. pretendin not seeing us. n we waited for abt 45 mins. FED up! decided to take mrt. kao. i called those who take mrt n not cab. n they werre already home. wahseh! feel so fuck up. bloody comfort smrt citycab silver cab red cab green cab. i wan to COMPLAIN man, argh!

haha. KELLY ROX KELLY ROX. recommnended song for keely cd----> track 1 to 10. haha. beside these the others not nice liao. LOL. haha! i m soo lame.... wadeva! n yes thanks our boss for allowing us to take leave tt dae. HAHA.

idiots pls read dis.

2006-02-11T23:57:00.000-08:00

我们肆无忌惮我们成群结党
我们目无尊长对什么事都不满
看着我们的成长只会制造麻烦
我们就是一无是处你又能怎样

我们 Don't Give A Damn 那看不起的眼光
我们什么都不是我们什么都不管
我们之间为什么会渐渐地没有语言
我们之间有道墙

学校老师束手无策父母臭骂我们不会想
这个社会的标准已经超出了我们这年纪的有限想象
只认定会读书就一定是好孩子的榜样
别以为看不起我们就告诉自己比人家强

有多少人关心我们为何会走错迷失方向
又有谁会替我们想想苹果为何变烂
其实我们也曾努力要争取所有人的称赞
扪心自问你们究竟给了我们多少希望

泪水已经流干，前途也很渺茫
迷失的灵魂，我们应该怎么办
惩罚我们就是堂皇的协助成长
然后让我们一生绝望

有些人幸运天生没有战场
我们一出世就是自己孤军作战
站在十字路口的风雨中呐喊
不要让我们一生

CNY!!

2006-02-02T04:00:00.000-08:00

its CNY! yeah! happi new yr everyone.
nth special fr dis cny. hongbao , gamble , eat , gamble , gathering , gamble again. ha. shall nt elaborate too much on it.

bagua
my farking bagua job finally ended. i jus dun uds y so mani ppl go ps n buy bagua. PS is for shoppinn and movie nt bagua. CMON PPL. ha. this job is extremely BORING FUCKUP for me. yes. ppl there r nice but jus dun like it. customer r extremely irritating over there. there is dis guy who wanna fight wif us cos we didnt wanna gif an extra paper bag to him. WTF is wrong wif him. this stupid job make my temper super bad for the whole dammn month. n yes! cashiering at the shop is anyone can do one. n the fuckin manager will always sort of blame me whenever ani credit or nets mistake were make. wtf man. its alwaes me. i do double check everytime leh. kao. n pls I am a cashier at expo b4 OK! serving thousands of ppl everydae. WTF! $##@!@##$, argh! but now is over! over! but a new nitemare is comin. o lvl result!

chalet
went to 4g chalet during mid jan. was enjoying myself happily wif the alcohol n food when sudd ppls start tellin us tt moe haf send a letter to ppl hu scores 15-20 for o lvl to be a teacher. I DIDNT RECEIVE IT. those hu normaly haf poorer result didnt receive it too. the moment i heard it i was like so turn off man. the beer i was drinkin was like so bitter. the chicken wing i am eating is like so sour. my whole fuckin mood was destroyed! fuck it. wass suppose to ton the whole nite which i know i can do it. i m an owl k. but choose to slp at 3 in the end. 3 okie? its like even at home i will onli slp at 3 plus lor. kao.

feelin so afraid rite now. i wan go to a good course in poly. heard fr ppl tt 10th of feb will be the dae. fuck it. hai. feelin so argh rite inside . wanted to vent it out. but hai. think nobody will uds how the fuck i m feelin la.

there is this good brather of mine. he did smth wrong big time. i haf alwaes treated him as my best fren tinkin tt i uds him. HA. tts rubbish. in my whole grp of brathers i think everyone treated him as a best buddy. but i dun think he cherish us at all. HA. tts so stupid of us. jus wanted to tell him LIFE consists nt onli RELATIONSHIP. u still haf FRENS n FAMILY.

dunno wad the fuck i m doin now. feelin so low everytime. so confuse+fedup+fuckup+dissapointed+sad INSIDE.ARGH! at times i feel like crying at times i feel so high. being lame doesnt even helps to make me feel better now. ha. hai. ha. hai. BOO! fuckit.

long long long....

2006-01-02T09:13:00.000-08:00

so mani things happened..

bagua.
i haf work at mei zhen xiang for abt a week liao. ya. the peeps there are nt bad. but. sometimes feel so lonely. haix. hao xiang john liitle de days.. tiring it is. but. HAO WAN. HAO XIAO. ha. 29-nov to 11 dec 05 jus simply rocks. ha. suddenly feelin veri sad. lol. y dun expo sales last longer?!? stupid mr robinson.

Prom NITE
yes. 30th of dec is our prom nite. haha. were so excited by it. reach there abt 6 50. when the dinner was suppose to start at 7. ha. walk into the hall and haf a look. wow the decoration was BAGUS! ha. class table n chairs wif a beautiful decorated plain white table cloth. n a veri romantic candle on it. woohoo. but nvm. i expected this aniwae. wad can u expect fr the tight budget n the generous sponsor who gave 200$ . haha. but NVM. haha. the girls who went rrly dressup rrly nice. *APPLAUDS* for them. ha. WAS so high tt dae. i manage to take photo wif abt 80% of the girls i know. haa. i gt mani dates tt dae! lol. HUISHI... YOUMIN.. EVELYN.. PAMELA... i miss u all, lol. HAHA. the selection of prom king is rrly unfair. NT fair. lol. judges are blind. but nvm. Dong ziji Hao kan jiu hao. lol. yeah. the dinner which was suppose to start at 7.00 was delayed till 7.30 due to the puntuality of my nanchiau sch mates. waha. but NVM. this is the trend of chinese. haha. the bottom of my shoe came out n i gotto ask my dad drive to sch n gid me a new one. lol. after prom. shaik was askin me to clubbing. but i rejected him. which i regreted! lol. they were drinkin n dancing n entertainin at such a low price. n guess where i go after tt. MACDONALD. i go find shushu n take pic wif him. lol. went there to eat wif a bunch of peeps. all so formally dress. ha. after tt went qy hse n stay. crap wif masam shang shaun the whole nite. FARTING at each other. lol . so mad. lol. sleept at abt 6 n woke up at 8 plus n went to work. ha. SUPERMAN.

NEW YR EVE.
31st DEC which was the nxt dae of prom. i went hoome after work. thinkin yes. finally gotto slp. ha. reach home at 5. crap at msn a while n went to slp. wad a boring way to pass the last dae of 2005 rite. ha. masam called askin me out when i was sleepin. i forgot wad i said to him n hang up. n den shaik called askin me go out. i sae i 'll call u back. lol. n den i went to slp again. woke up at 9. i gt 5 missed call. lol. called shaik back. n den he is goin to clun again. i wash myslef up n rush to clark quay. meet masam first den was walkin to find them. waha. two ROAD IDIOTS findin ppl. lol. luckily i m smart. i use my sixth sense n manage to find them. ha. the bar was call TIKKI bar i suppose. lol. meet shaik yusheng sb hui shi youmin qy over there. entry fee was 20 bucks. ex leh. previous dae they went in for less then ten bucks n manage to get alcohol. n tt dae becos of licence check i can onli drink coke. ha. went in. the music were loud. i feel like dancing. but i paiseh. was waitin for shaik to start. he didnt. he was tired. lol. suddenly yusheng went high n he went dancing. lol. hui shi followed n soon i m in the dance floor. haha. all us dance except sb. he is feelin tired. i uds. ha. dancing rrly makes u sweat n tired but u will jus keep on doin it. lol. JIAN FEI MIAO ZHAO. lol. YS was dancing nonstop for abt 2 hr. lol. suspecting he took some drugs or panadol wif coke. lol. but nvm. it was fun. all of us were high w/o alcohol which was good. lol. everyone was HIGH HIGH. esp the countdown part. lol. ENJOY IT! thanks SHAIK. haha. n ps. clubbing doesnt mean paikia. haha. left the place abt 2. wow. alot of club ard. fuck man. waited for an hr plus for cab n none wanted to pick us up. cb man. in the end we decided to walk to suntec n take. n ym told us its jus an 20 min walk. lol. we reach there at 345 lor. veri 20min. ha. but nvm. i doesnt wan to be home so early too. lol. on the way we sae some transexual they were findin trouble wif peeps tt were luffin at them. ha. funni man. lol. i reach home at abt 420. lol. bath n went to slp at 5. lol. woke up at 9. lol. SUPERMAN again. i need some REDBULL. lol.

TODAY
meet evelyn huishi n youmin after work todae.. went to eat at lucky plaza. n finally i know that lucky got foodcourt. ha. huishi went back to work and we went to SC. on the way. it is raining sheep n cow. lol. we gotto hide at HELLO shop. waited 20 min for the rain to get smaller. but. it doesnt. lol. in the end i tore the sports part of my newpaper out n gave the rest to the gals. haha. feel so idiotic. went to HMV to shop before goin SC. i saw the dustbin while goin up. GOT wet newspaper. lol. todae one. so. haha. i m nt the onli idiot. went SC after tt. i did not went in wif them. dun ask me WHY. haha. went opposite sc n was findin for sweets. nabei. dun haf. lol. so ppl who are thinkin of opening a candy shop. tt is the place. lol. after tt went fareast n mani places to shop.. BOUGHT nothing. MIRACLE. lol. hah. went home at 8 plus cos tml sch REOPENING evelyn gotto slp early. haha. tokin abt sch reopening, i sudd miss sec sch life. haix. regretted nt studyin hard enuff. rrly. lol. i rather study now den sell bagua lor. i wan go JC after hearing tt A LEVEL onli need one yr to study. the other can play. lol. may god bless tt i do well for o lvel. lol AMEN. may buddha bless tt i score well. AMITABHA. lol.

HAHA
i took an hr plus to write this entry. i xi shen my slp to do this. so ppl. TAG ME. its so boring over there. SAD LA. haha. to PEEPS who r studyin tml.. ALL THE BEST. STUDY HARD. lol.

f up

2005-12-24T12:18:00.001-08:00

my hair.
yeaH! its black again! thanks to my mother. wow. GREAT man, my mum cheated me todae. i bought a hazel nut to dye ytd. cos she is makin so much noise abt my red hair. den this happen. she offer to help me dye. den. i stupid let her dye. den. she change to black dyye whem i didnt notice. n da dang. black hair. wow!

its xmas.
feelin so bored. this xmas is like nt fun at all? lol. I WAN XMAS PRESENT. ha. my FRENS where are u all? lol.

LAME
No 1: whose house no phone? (guess one cheng yu)
No 2:two men sit on a stone. (guess one cheng yu)

ha. pls entertain me n tag at the tag board. lol.

hai

2005-12-22T10:08:00.000-08:00

band dinner
its band dinner todae. took a cab. thought we were late. reach abt 6 . den the great newss tt our conductor is lost. they cannot find the way. they reach at 745. n its like wth do we need to rush dwn. ha.but the food is quite nice la. so okie lor

pool
went pool after tt wif derek sb by johnathan n zhi ming.. my luck is still not back yet. zm got a glove for pool n it helps super lot. ppl. xmas is comin. HINT. ha. n tml pool trip is postpned! due to some idiotic reason. ha.

my shoe.
my shoe is gone gone gone gone! supppose to buy this blue nike shoe online. n its like so excited when i tot of it. n now, it doesnt haf myy size. if i did nt consider so much ytd i would haf been able to buy it. now i m suffering depression. god dun luv me. hai. rrly heartpain man. no kiddin. but nvm! i m goin oout to shop for my prom nite stuff. buy more thing to make myself happi. haha.

ytdd..

2005-12-20T20:35:00.001-08:00

wok up at 12 plus ytd...

童梦奇缘
watch it ytd.. wah. nice show.. ppl. go dwl it! ha

dinner
went out wif lionel zi jian kok wei ytd night.. went bedok n eaat. celebraate their passing of nlvel..

pool
i m still laggin behind. n dis time worse. @@@@. ha.

did many lame stuff b4 i went to slp ytd.. ha. i m dwling ru guo ai now. cant wait fot it to complete. n may god bless tt police dun catch me.. ha

ytdd..

2005-12-20T20:35:00.000-08:00

2005-12-20T12:38:00.000-08:00

shall tok abt ytd.

BAGUA
i haf pen down a contract wif mei zhen xiang ba gua. my cd will be out arong mid 2006. whaha.

yahoo pool.
i lost to yiwen jie jie ytd. wth. 5-7. its okie. i gave her chance..

band dinner
soon its gonna band dinner. i m so ^$@#@@. argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i need a tie. anyone can lend me??? ha.

almost get run down by a car. i m so sway noadaes. must be the handshake of derek. argh! ha.

2005-12-18T09:00:00.000-08:00

boring..
did nth todae. wake up at 4. whole family went out. cook a bowl of noodle. eat. den crap at msn. tryin hard to put tao tai lang into my blog. in the end onli one person can hear. mayb tt person is tryin to fu yan wo. den sae can hear. lol.

soccer
my leg was killin me ytd nite. stupid weather. i m like a old man now. argH!

nth much to say todae. blog cos i m bored. lol. i know my blog is popular. so shall blog for the sake of u peeps. hah. bhb

2005-12-17T07:57:00.000-08:00

we lost again. never mind. shi bai shi cheng gong de mother so lets learn fr it. haha. LAME

soccer
we thought we will win. but they are still too strong for us. mayb its the age gap. lol. but losin 3-1 is still not tt bad la. i still rmb the daes when we lose 10-1. lol. i injured my shin again.. wtf. i m officially LAME now. wahahahaha.

shoppin
went shoppin wif evelyn qingyun n sb ytd.. haha DA FENG SHOU. bought lots of things. dammn happie.. n my mum likes my ear stud, haha .

my leg is hurtin now. i shall end here.

its alive..

2005-12-16T07:31:00.000-08:00

lol. my blog is not dead. after doin some cpr. haha. not funni..

john little
well the jk sales is actually FUN!!! haha. RI boys n DUNMAN girl are nt tt dao actually. 2 weeks jus pass like that. kind of miss it. lol. a job tt i rrly enjoy. though tiring. n i m called a gay n gangster over there. WTF? lol.. waitin for the nxt jl sales. lol . aggreed to do together again. haha

chalet
went to pri sch chalet too. well was afraid tt i will be call a beng. luckily. i m too friendly to be call one. haha. was havin fun there.. pool.. bowling.. cards.. n tau pok.. if u all dunno wads tt. it is stacking up like rugby players..ahah

soccer
its goin to be dreamoz soccer match tml. we will win them this time. trust me. haha

ookiee
this time. i tend to forget a person dammn fast. lol . maybe i haf become more matured? lol . tts wad xue er told me. lol. well. life goes on. n its seems to be better wifout her. lol. so..

first dae.

2005-11-29T23:05:00.000-08:00

its the first dae of my job. took derek dad's car wif evelyn. n we reach ther at 7.30 when the fact tt our job starts at 830. lol. wtf?

manager
fucking manager make us do this do tt non stop for 12 hr. it was like thw whole expo hall was empty when we went it n when we left its fully occupied by items, can u imagine how much work we haf done? all the poor temp staff.. haha.

ookiee
since u sae i took away ur happiness indirectly. n make u feel so uncomfortable. n make u do so much everytime. sorry. rrly. if u rrly can take it as nth haf happen. tts u. nt me. u shld know how a leo feels abt all this. so Zhong Jing Ting i am sorry. i dun blame u for being frank. at least u are frank. thanks. n dun worry i wont stop my fren from communicating or contacting wif u. so dunn worry.. so goodluck..ya..
ps. if i sound meean. tts me. i m nt a MR NICE GUY. sorry. n tts smth i hate n dislike of myself too.. wahahahaahaha

GOODBYE

2005-11-29T01:29:00.000-08:00

GOODBYE

坐在你的身边相偎身影是谁在这露天 Cafe
耳机一人一边分享著音乐你笑得太甜美

低著头转身退脚步拖著心碎走多远无所谓
给我一点最间让心情沉淀宁愿寂寞跟随

今夜和你说再见突然感觉心轻了些
就算在离开以前泪水已流满脸
今夜和你说再见其实我心里有多不愿
就算当作没看见这伤心的画面

今夜和你说再见其实我心里有多不愿
就能当作没看见这伤心的画面 Hey Yi Yeah Yi Yeah Yeah

今夜和你说再见其实我心里有多不愿
就算当作没看见这伤心的画面
就能当作没看见这伤心的画面

kelllllyyyy!!

2005-11-27T02:07:00.000-08:00

yeah!!!!!!!!!!!! finally see kelly... wahahahaha. hao kai xin. she is mei dao........ lol. but she rrly need to buck up on her eng. lol batch=bitch. ai si ta le....

hair
highlight my front n back red todae. it came out like shit. my money fly awaay le... ssaddd. haha

blah
things jus happen too abruptly... LOL. wo jian jian de zhi wo cui mian.. lol

zhi wo cui mian
currently crap as much as possible to not to make me think too much. crappin wif glorious ppl now. i feel like an idiot upon seeing wad i haf said. but. mayb . haix. dunno la.. HAHA.

miss-ed kelly

2005-11-26T03:38:00.000-08:00

argH!!! i miss kelly show at sp todae. fuckup man! !@#$% my fuckin phone went crzay and the alarm did not ring. fuck man. in the end i woke up at 1130. suppose to meet them at 11. wtf man. but they are rrly kind hearted man wait for me abt an hour. so heres a thank you to derek sb cw evelyn su zhen n kelly.. haha.

SP
wow.. its rrly big man. veri lost there. aha. must climb up n down den can go to the foodcourt. tiring man. if they build escalator there i sure go there n study one. lol. heard tt nan chiau goin to haf a jc . so mayb i will retain n wait for it to open. lol

play
went to ps after tt. wanna catch a movie wan. but then becos of zhong zhong yuan ying we nv.. lol, went to xbox instead. gotto play wif derek cos nobody wanna sit wif him. so. i as his brather xi shen le. haha. ym n evelyn were so noisy there.. no yi tai at all. lol. went qy house n do nth thre aft tt. cos i dun wan to be alone. lol.

ookiee
wo shi yi ge pa ji mo de nan ren.

backkkk..

2005-11-23T22:37:00.000-08:00

lol. i am back. my fuckin com is okie liao.. finally .

job
lol. i gt a job n i m a cashier at john little. haha. can steal money liao. lol. jk.. went for the orientation tt day. borrring. lol. den went for neoprints. wahaha. years i haf take neo. those girls tt take wif me shld feel fortunaate man. haha. gan dong rite. lol. den went for pool. wakao. i lose to evelyn n xue er. actually ish i lang them one. den i see them so happi so i keep quiet. hha.

steamboat
4g gatherin ytd. went marina eat. haha. 30+ ppl go. surprise man. 4gregarious rocks baby. haha. went for ah gua after tt. cool babes they are. n ppl. i got a new hole. lol. ah gua and hole. try linkin it.

xbox
girls rrly can get crazy wif games man.. hah

ookiee.
well. i m loud. n i am sry. rly.. but she is loud too. which make my fuckin temper get fuckup easily too. haha. Lions are loud.. i shall be optimistic. correct spelliing? lol. HAHAHA.

...

2005-11-18T04:00:00.000-08:00

watch harry potter wif by sb they all.. well emma was freakin beautiful.. lol.

well..
my fuckin o level was finallly comin to an end. after tues i am free!!!!. lol . but actually i nt tt happi. its like ur sec life is over.. my frens. my teacher. kao. slowly. they will leave u one by one.. all of them are goin tt fuckin CI. n i m like the onli asshole goin poly. aargh.

kelly
suddenly. i m so into kelly again. lol. i miss her man. lol. she goin to haf a concert at sp. n i m invited. woohoo. anyone accompany me???? haha

ookiee
as i expected.. we will all go seperate ways after o. well. wad can i do. act like an idiot n keep askin her out or wad. sorry i dun haf the thick skin. maybe i shld jus do nth, n slowly we will be like stranger. lol . owowowowo!!! yeah!!!!!!!!!!!! haha. n now . how i wish the fucking o level wont end. i dun wan to go n face the fuckin future..HAHAHAAH.

.!. .!.

2005-10-25T02:19:00.000-07:00

inevitable = impossible to avoid or prevent. a new word learn todae. HAHA..

derek hse.
life wasnt smooth for my good brather ｄｅｒｅｋ　，ｌｉｏｎｅｌ（ｆｏｒｅｖｅｒ）this few daes n for me too.. mayb u all can sae. we ask for it. but.. there is still but. haix. wtf! tt tiny drop of thing jus flow down liddat. which i dunno y. haha. i m rrly a big fucker. (ym jus reminded me) ha! i m jus a guy tt always get angry wif u for no reason. i m jus an idiot tt onli know how to get angry. i m jus some petty idiot. some !@#$ asshole . but do u know.. ARGHHHGHGHHGHHHB!!!!!!!!!!!! forget it. o level is comin n we are gettin ourself into all this shit.. y? y? y? y?!!!!!!!! argh!

ookiee..
我想学会自我催眠。。痛觉会少一些。。可是我只是在逃避. 不过不逃避我还能做么。。现在我的幽默只是掩饰我的心痛我的难过。。好希望你能懂我。可是我会不说，不想说。怕说了也没有用。只会更难过。。好想就这样忘了，走了，没有难过。。可是世上就是还有可是。。　ａｒｇｈ！！！！！！！！！！１

bad day. again

2005-10-21T00:31:00.000-07:00

argh. realise i haf nt blog for a week. nth much happen except tt inccident at rp bus stop on mon.

...
went nite class. den variinice. den derek me pam accompny jt to wait for her bus. her bus came. n she was sort of crappin wif me. den i push her up the bus. she hit the board of the bus. makin such a big noise.but in fact she was actin. wtf. den this 3 guy follow us after tt to the opp. bus stop. confronted us. say we diao them. we ask pam to leave first n den haf a tok wif them. they say we stare them den sae i xl push jt blah blah n sae i look at their gf. excuses to beat us. in the end we were beaten up . derek the one tt was more serious. all i can see is WTF.

ookiee.
wo bu shi bai chi. wo bu shi bai chi. wo bu shi bai chi. qing ni bu yao zai zhe yang kan dai wo hao ma?

2005-10-13T23:33:00.000-07:00

sch was boring todae. fuckin ansar make me slp like a pig in class todae. lol

party at 120.
went 120 todae. hong heng gatherin . lol . was kind of high jus now until i kick derek stupid knee. he was teachin us kungfu on blockin den i gotto kick him. i kick n he block wif his knee. it land right on my left ankle. i gt a injury on there last time. the pain was so terrible tt i almosst cried. and now i m limpin. ya man! limping. haha. but i dun blame him. its my fault.

ookiee.
thought tt after scoldin her i shall nt bother but her anymore. thinkin tt mayb nt interactin wif her will make me feel better. so i gif her tt fuckin attitude. wo yi wei zhe yang wo hui bi jiao hao yi dian. but.. sigh. ni mei you cuo. there's no nid for u to apologise. feel so fuckin bad inside when u sae tt sorry. i m the one in the wrong. nt u. rrly. i m jus a bastard. a selfish bastard.the look on ur face make me feel like tellin u i m so fuckin sorrie. rrly. wo bu xiang zai bei shang hai le. ke shi. wo zui bu dao mei you ni de ri zi. sigh. was glad tt now we r back to our crappin terms. but. i .. sigh.

i am a lump of shit.

2005-10-12T03:47:00.000-07:00

brather.
well. jus read a blog tt i hope i nvr manage to see it. sigh. here it comes. i haf this brother. i treat him as my best brather. he someone tt is dammn fuckin good but yet i took advantage of it. i scold him i slap him i beat him whenever i feelin nt happi. no. even i am happi i still scold him. wad a fucktard asshole i am. compared to him i m jus a idiot tt onli know how to crap. nt serious. idiot. kaobei. stupid. failure. uncomfortable. awkward. one big fat lump of shit. i haf another brather. one of my best brather too. well. another one tt i always xialan . or so call bully. yes. i m a big bully too. i deserve another fuckin scoldin. i am an asshole. although this is how i treat him he still try to help me wif tt someone. crap wif me . treat me nicely. wad i motherfuccker i am rite. compare to him i m jus a idiot who try to act funny, try to act cute. arghhhhhh.. n once gain a big fat lump of shit. n here . another brather of mine. i known him for fuckin nine years! since pri2. yes. his attitude wasnt tt good sometimes. but yet i know mine are still worse den him. i bullied him . xia lan himm. sort of backstab him. wad a cb kia i man. argh! fucker i am. despite all this. he still teach me maths. help me out. n try to tok to me nicely. try to gif in to me. yet. i still xialan him. like i am his boss he must listen to my command. n sometimes becos of some thing i didnt even treat him as my brather at all. i m n asshole. BIG time. compared to him i m like a idiot. asshole. cb kia. failure. blah blah.
well this are my answer to myself for y i am such a failure.

argh
i m kaobei. lump of shit. a pig tt roll on mud. blahblahblah. i knoe u dont mean it. i didnt take it into heart too. i know it sound .. bbut . aiyah . argh. i tried to act like an idiot. crap. lame. jus hopin tt when u tok to me u wont feel awkward , weird , strange and so on. n before i read tt. i thought it was workin well. but. shucks.. i still let u feel weird when tokin to me or being left alone. haha. wad a idiot i am when i think of tt. i thought by makin u luff by being an idiot its better. but. argh. you told me tt u r sad . i try to console u but in the end i jus make u feel weird. haha. wad a failure i am. yes. i am an idiot. i thought mayb by doin this at least i can let u feel comfortable tokin to me but. hha. its other guys tt gif u tt feelin. haha! i wanted to treat u good. rrly. but i dun know how. or maybe i dunno how so tt u wont feel weird. k, i m jus hum ji. to u ppl. but. nvm.. yes. i did lie to u abt alot of things n den tell u i m lyin when u believe me. i may be like a fuckin big fat LIAR to u. but. i did tt jus to entertain u . thinkin tt by doin maybe i could make u feel entertained. but. hearing it fr others tt u sae i always xialan u stupid by lyin to u. i rrly feel ctl. n mayb i m jus an idiot.i jus wan u to enjoy tokin to me. tts all. but.sigh nvm..i thought tt nite on msn i finally got to tok to the inner u. feelin so happi. n in the end its jus a... sigh. i tried to do little things tt can make u happi. i didnt dare to make it look too obvious cos simply i m hum ji . tt dae at playground i thought mayb u will feel better after all dis but..

ookiee
sometimes i rrly hope tt i can return to the dae where we were workin. tt time we r able to do so mani thing tt we wont feel awkward all this. at least at tt time i know tt i know u. sigh. maybe derek ish rite.i dunno how to love someone. i am shit.

fuckup dae

2005-10-11T23:30:00.000-07:00

results
got back my prelim final result. R4 i got 28 r5 41. how they hell they calculate . i dunno know how the hell they calculate tt.

nite study
could not concentrate to do anything at all. went there for 2 hours and i onli did 5 mcq qns. nabei. scolded someone when we were goin home. dunno wads wrong wif me. jus fuckup. sigh.

ookiee
yao he ni suo dui bu qi que suo bu chu kou. wo.. haix suan le ba. wo hen kao bei la. argh!!!!! dbq zhe 3 ge zi zhen mo, na mo nan suo chu kou. wo ye bu zhi dao. sigh.

fucktard.

2005-10-07T09:49:00.001-07:00

my modem was confiscated by my great mum. could not online for the whole week. dammn fuckup by it. anyone one to donate a modem to me? u would be truely appreciated. sigh.

life.
everydae was slp.sch.slp.nite class.soccer.home. life without com ish terrible. lol . currently at lionel hse now. wif kok jian seng. celebratin end of n level.. beer for me n pop for them. lol . when ish my turn to celbrate end of o level?? lol.

ookiee
you hao duo hao duo de shi wo suo bu chu kou. zhi neng jiao ni bu yao shang xin. bu yao nan guo. wo xiang. wo zhi neng zhe yang zuo ba. jiu lang shi jian ba ni de shang tong man man de dai zhou ba. sigh. let us enjoy our secondary life ba. after this few daes. dunno when the hell are we goin to meet again or wad. sigh.

2005-09-30T11:59:00.000-07:00

got my prelim result liao. yah man. 30++ pts. wow. since young my parents wan me gt high pts. finally i achieve it. yeah!! lol.

sch.
raja starts encouragin me. thanks man. lol. gotto work freakin hard liao. or else i m goin to meet my fren nxt yr either at nchs or simei liao. lol . went home wif qy n xe todae. went yoshi. n xueer the water ish cheap there k. lol. suddenly feel so bright at yoshi jus now. lol.

supper..
went for nite class late. mr seah was suppose to meet us at 7. den i seven den wake uup. haha. thought i was the onli tt is late. called jt n derek . yes. both of them still on the way too. lol. went for supper at VARINICE.lol. wif deerek kw jt pam n persis. lol. haf fun there. lets go there every week man. lol! fried kway tiao w/o dark source ish so nice man. lol everyone go try man!

ookiee.
haha. nth much to sae.. jus keep on goin liddat la.. haha. eat more fruits man. constipation doesnt feel good. haha. i wan my sushi meal!
lol.

2005-09-28T01:35:00.000-07:00

took back my maths todae. failed. sigh. dunno wads wrong wif me. fuck.

school..
spot check for hair todae. kaox. kena catch gotto go for the barber. hide in toilet for the last period. lol. after sch immediately go jef ther n cut. lol. victor lost his hp there. dunno which idiot ttook it.. went to nite class at 5 plus. like alot of ppl reach ar. tt jt told derek that 4 plus meet in sch. lol . come veri early ar. was so fuck up at nite. everything seems to be like against me. lol. my temper getting so GOOD nowadaes.sigh.

ookie.
he ni jiang wan hua hou. xin qing hao le hen dou. derek ish rite. wo xiang tai duo le. lol. ni ye bu yao dan xin tai duo. dis is jus a prelim. wo zhi dao wo mei you zi ge jiang zhe xie. lol. ni zhen de hen hao.. wo xiang xing , wo yi ting bu hui hou hui xi huan shang ni ba. haha. xi wang yi hou. neng zai you ji hui zhe yang de hen ni shuo hua ba. haha..

pool daeee.

2005-09-26T11:54:00.000-07:00

meet kok in the mornig wif derek. drink beer again. lol..

sch.
hand in my art. teo say my board nicest of the 3 of us. (sb shaik me) lol . so happy. n proud. lol. i m a leo. so forgive me for being proud. lol . saw yc n steph walking out of toilet todae. den the toilet was in a mess. dunno wtf they did. HAHA

pool.
went to pool after tt. wif by derek jt trev weeta boon n others.. lol. long time nvr play liao. but. got shi li means got shi li. lol. those who partner wif me shld know! lol . proud* haha. after pool went cp n eat. suppose to go nite class de. but no mood la. lol. crap wif derek n jt till ten liddat n went home. lol.

ookiee
jin tian you shi yi ge kai xin de yi tian . lol . qi ma wo zhi dao. ni mei you na mo pa wo le. hao ba. jiu ji xu zhe yang xia qu ba. haha. hao cong shi de yi tian. xi wang xing qing neng zhe yang man man de hao qi lai. kuai kuai le le di guo wan zhe zhong xue de shen hou ba. zhe yang , ying gai bu hui lang wo you she mo hou hui ba. HAHA.cherrioo everybody!! lol

2005-09-26T02:00:00.001-07:00

wad a dae. nth much happen todae. sleep.eat.tution.tv.sleep.eat.. lol

hanyu.
is there really alot of error in my hanyu pinyin? wad lao. lol. okie. maybe i pri sch tt time teacher teach i nt attentive k. lol. mayb its the way i phrase the words u all cant uds man. i shall put full-stop n comma this time. tag me if u all still cant uds. lol. but.. haha.

bdae..
its TAN YOU MIN's bdae todae. lets sing a song to her k. 1 . 2. 3 .. HAPPI BDAE TO U x4 lol . lazi to type. but ym. gan dong ba. haha

superstars cd...
wad lao. shld haf gone to tiong baru tt dae. kao. one cd n one concert ticks onli sellin at $29.90. sigh. my kelly... wo hao xiang ni. lol

ookiee.
wang le cong na li ting lai zhi ju hua . ren zhong ai shuo guo qu bi xian zai hao, ying wei guo qu de yi jing guo qu le.sigh. you shi wo dui zi ji shuo , hai shi suan le ba. wo zhi hui yue xian yue shen. ruo you yi tian wo yao pa chu lai de hua. na shi na mo de kun nan ar. ke shi. mei ci kan dao ni. she mo dou wang le. HAHA.

2005-09-26T02:00:00.000-07:00

drink drank drunk..

2005-09-25T02:00:00.000-07:00

pam call me early in the morning at 12 plus. ask me go watch longest yard. lol. paiseh cannot go. i m a bz man. must book me earlier nxt time. hhah

drink drank drunk..
went peter hse todae. eat popiah. lol . long time nvr meet wif them le. lionel jian kok peter. suddenly think tt actually all of them treat me quite well yet i pang seh them everytime. went hougang green drink beer after tt. haha. lionel was drinkin.!! nabei . its like one yr plus nv drink wif him le. haha. his face still the same la. red like the guan gong liddat. haha. crap wif him. sayin abt those sad thing n 5566. nabei. lol . todae drink 2 bottle jiu cannot le. haha. lao le. bu xing le. haha . was so high jus now. lol. must find one more dae. come out drink again. haha. pam n ym was complain bout my hanyu pinyin. but i still tink tt typin wif them i can express more. i m a guy wif poor eng k. lol. so pardon me.

superstar cd.
heard tt pre-order the cd can get free concert ticks. those who feel like goin contact me asap. i wan go see my princess kelly. lol

ookiee
wo zhi dao shang xin bu neng gai bian she mo ke shi sigh. wo hai neng zuo she mo. wo zhen de bu zhi dao le. wo dui zi ji suo yao lang ni kaixin kuai le jiu gou le. ke shi mei dang wo ji mo shi shang xin shi shui neng lang wo kuai le. wo dong wo hen zi si. ke shi.. sigh. suan le ba. kan dao ni de xiao rong ying kai jiu zhu guo le ba. ni na chun zhen de xiao rong shi wo yong bu hui wang ji de tong xi ba..

《暧昧》

2005-09-24T15:00:00.000-07:00

暧昧
暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还得不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景
到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还是你
我很不服气也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你
暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进
何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你
写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里

*a song for me.

yang cheng lin de ai mei. veri nice. lyrics veri meaningful.

bleah...

2005-09-24T03:00:00.000-07:00

boringgg..
no sch todae. woke up at 1 plus. lol .suppose to call ppl wake up n meet for breakfast. in e end wake up alot. went cut hair todae. on the way she two girl wearing nc shirt. thought who. in e end ish jt n pam. lol. told them we r fated n they walk off. nabei. lol. went to sch at nite. the great mr lu told us library open for us den in the end open alot man. fuck . lol. went play soccer in e end. long time nvr play till so shiok liao. found my happiness there. something i haf been lackin for the prelim period. received a msg jus now sayin ys was lock out of the house. to those idiots who believe his crap. STUPID. lol .

ookiee
sigh. wo zhen de mei you yao qiu na mo duo. qi ma ni hai ba wo dang zhe hao peng yu ba. ting le sui ren you dian shi wang ke shi neng cong ge hu bu xiang shi de liang ge ren dao xian zai de hao peng yu ying kai shi jian zhi de kaixin de shi ba. bu guo hao peng you dui ni lai shuo dao di shi she mo? wo xi wang wo neng shi ge dang ni shang xin shi neng zai ni sheng pang gei ni yi kao zhi chi ni de hao peng you. zai neng kai xin kuai le shi neng he ni fen xiang yi qi feng de hao peng you. wo bu yao shi ge zhi shi zai ni ren shen zhong de guo lu ren.qing lao tian shi xian wo zhe ge xiao xiao de yuan wang ba..

PRELIM OVER!!

2005-09-22T23:48:00.000-07:00

PRELIM ish finallyy overr. n i m back. haha. one more stage n i will haf my freedom back. WOOHOO....

school..
todae was having my art paper . finish in abt one hour time den jiu lie down n sleep.. was sleepin n dreamin so happily when someone pat on my shoulder. i almost scold fuck to tt person. lol . was mdm loh. she ask me finsh my art den slp. den i was like wtf. finish liao lor. kao. den i lie down n slp again. n again wad havin such a happy dream den someone woke me up again. cb. this time dunno wad teacher lai de. kao.again repeated the same word. sae i nvr finish. my art was nice lor. i purposly make it liddat lor. haha.

ookiee
jin wan zhen de hen kaixin. hao jiu mei you zhe yang le.lol. xi wan neng zhe yang xia qu ba. you ren gen wo zhe mo shuo guo. zi ji zai yi pang shang xin zhe ge na ge dao bu ruo qu xiang xiang yi qian ni shi zhen yang rang ta kuai le de. hai shi zuo guo she mo rang ta kaixin. zai cong zhong xue xi cong zhong zuo dian dong xi. at first ting qi lai like fei hua but you dao li la. haha. ni jui zhen gui. .

studieee.

2005-09-18T23:30:00.000-07:00

went crazy wif kelly song last nite. cant even concentrate to study. haha.

Studiee.
derek jt yc came my hse to study todae. lol. jt came wif a stylo skirt. haha. manage to clear few chapters. hope tml will come out. and nabei derek say i gt the syndrom of diabeties. fuck.dunno real or not. quite scared by it. haah

ookie
xi wang wo men neng xiang jing tian zhe yang ba. dui wo lai shuo zhe yang ying gai jiu guo le ba. xi wang yue duo shi wang yue duo. suo yi wo bu gan yao qiu tai duo.

December 下雪的冬天

2005-09-18T05:59:00.000-07:00

December 下雪的冬天冰冷的雪冻结所有情节
我不愿爱在回忆里搁浅
对或不对 爱开始也是凭感觉
有幸福就难免伤悲

December 下着雪的冬天
看窗外白茫茫的一片
Remember 我们许下的愿
雪默默无言将它冰结成点
忽然间又想起那一场离别

冰冷的雪冻结所有情节
我不愿爱在回忆里搁浅
我面对也试着去了解
我也只能接受这一切
你我的一切都已是个今天
何必再期待有另一个往前
心却痛着 体验了每一个关键
忘记总是要一点时间

Remember 我们许下的愿
雪默默无言将它冰结成点
忽然间又想起那一场离别

冰冷的雪冻结所有情节
我不愿爱在回忆里搁浅
我面对也试着去了解
我也只能接受这一切
你我的一切都已是个今天
何必再期待有另一个往前
心却痛着 体验了每一个关键
忘记总是要一点时间

离别并非都是幸福的终点
或许他才是 他是幸福的遇见

冰冷的雪冻结所有情节
我不愿爱在回忆里搁浅
我面对也试着去了解
我也只能接受这一切
你我的一切都已是个今天
何必再期待有另一个往前
心却痛着 体验了每一个关键
忘记总是要一点时间

一定会有那么一天

here's a song composed n writen by KELLY PAN JIA LI. she wrote this song b4 the superstar contest n won third prize in a contest. dammn nice. those who wan can ask me send you. i will be glad to do so. Lots of thing in life did dissapoint me but KELLY had never . haha.

Airport. .

2005-09-18T04:24:00.000-07:00

Airport
went to the airport todae. to STUDY.. haha. at first sit down still can studie but after a while get quite fuck up by the noise ppl make there. the atmosphere jus nt the type for me to study la. kao . too bright for me. too noisy for me. they sae xin jing zi ran liang. *crap* lol. therefore moodswing again. fa pi qi again. those kelian peeps wif me gotto suffer again. sigh. if i keep on liddat think my fren will get lesser n lesser soon.. FUCK. i tried to control. but. fuck la.

OOkiee
kan dao ni de xiao rong. xin qing hao le yi dian. ke shi wo men de ju li gan jue shang yue lai yue yuan. yi qian zai yi qi shi zhong shi kuai kuai le le heng hao wan de. ke shi xian zai. zhong jue de fei chang gan ga. fei change de bu zi zai. ru guo ke yi xuan zhe de hua. wo ling yuan ba dong xi fang zai xin li. bu shuo chu lai. na yang wo xian zai ying kai bu hui na mo de shang xin ba. you xie shi hao dong de yue duo tong de yue duo. sigh. hao xiang hui dao na duan mei you ju li mei you gan ga de shi jian. na shi de wo zhen de hen kaixin. hen kaixin..

你好就好

2005-09-17T22:37:00.000-07:00

你好就好
看见你聊到了他而微笑
我心里那点遗憾不见了
你的最後选择是谁
忽然之间这个答案已似乎不重要
我肩膀永远等著你依靠
但是我更不希望你受困扰
我把时间对摺一遍从前未来唯一重叠
要你很幸福这心愿不动摇
只要你好就好你好就好
其他的我不计较
就算我会烦恼就算我会焦躁
就算我会被忘掉
你好就好你好就好(要过得比我好)
我的爱没有句号
像过去那样做到对你的付出坚持不肯少

*dedictaed to myself

Prelims...

2005-09-16T23:59:00.000-07:00

chinese prelim todae. compo was like fuck. no idea. crap alot den lie down n slp. den paper 2 better still do first qns jiu slp for 30 mins. the hall was like so fuckin nice to slp man. read passage dat time i slp again .haha. tell me how to pass my chinese. ??!

Pay
took my pay todae. nabei 180+ nia. work so hard get so little. but after lookin at jt n pam de pay i feel a little much more better. 90++ n 100++ haha. havin a fuckin attitude on the way there. sorry to all hu i have offended or bullied . esp.derek. thanks bro.

OOkiEE
wo zhen de shi ge wang ba dan. ye bu zhi dao wei she mo wo hui zhe yang. fa pi qi . fa pi qi. wo zhi hui zhe yang zuo. sigh. bu gan dui ni tai hao. hai pa hui you fan xiao guo. jue de wo fan. dao run ni de shen huo. ke shi bu dui ni hao wo you pa zhe ge na ga. wo hen xin ku. zhen de hen . .

first post.

2005-09-15T23:46:00.000-07:00

haha. finally got a blog. in the past i keep thinkin guys tt haf blogs are gay. but i am wrong. lol
blog are somethin tt u can vent on when u r angry and let u haf a place to sae wad the
fuck u r hidin in ur heart man..

Studying
studyin in canteen todae. mr lu taught me chinese. haha. he ish a good teacher sia.
first time gettin this kind of teachin for chinese. lol.

ookiee
ai yi ge ren zhen de you shi hen tong ku. ke shi bu ai ta gen tong ku. lol dunnno wtf i tokin
sigh. jus hope everythin will go back like the past. kai kai xin xin de zai yi qi wan. yi qi study.
zhe yang jiu guo le.

普通朋友

2005-09-15T08:53:00.000-07:00

普通朋友
等待
我随时随地在等待
做你感情上的依赖
我没有任何的疑问
这是爱
我猜
你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败
从天堂掉落到深渊
多无奈
我愿意改变(what can i do?)
重新再来一遍(just give me change)
我无法只是普通朋友
感情已那么深
叫我怎么能收手
但你说
i only want to be your friend
做个朋友
我在
你心中只是just a friend
不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
so i
我不能只是be your friend
i just can't be your friend
no,no,no,
我不能只是做你的朋友
不能只是做普通朋友

*dedicated to myself

2005-09-13T20:22:00.000-07:00

testing 1 . 2 . 3